"Our life maybe a crazy life but it's our life" I'm married to a pastor of a small rural church, who is also the prison chaplain. We have 5 kids, each with their unique story. I love gardening & we all love the outdoors. Our life is not the way we planned it to be, but we are learning to trust God in every area. Come and read about our life as we live it to the fullest!
Eleanor the cat (yes this is one of the "kittens) wants to make sure Shad was clean for school today. As he sat reading last night, he got a good cleaning!
she got the back of his head too LOL
We had a great weekend. Our oldest son was home from college so that automatically makes it great:) My heart was heavy as I thought of the families who lost their children to the shooter in Oregon. And my prayers remain with those families who had such strong loved ones that when asked they said "I am Christian" even knowing they were going to be killed.
LISTEN! Before Christians start saying stupid stuff ( I've seen things on FB today already) PUTIN IS NOT OUR FRIEND!!!!! He is not a friend of evangelical Christians. We have dear friends who pastor in Ukraine. Gunmen came to their church one morning told them to leave town by noon or they & their families would be KILLED!!!! So don't think we're going to be sitting around a campfire with Putin singing 'Kumbaya"... He supports the Russian Orthodox Church because it is cultural. Please be aware things have just gotten way worse in this crazy world & if you think Putin is doing any thing that doesn't benefit himself then you are NUTS! (And yes I do not like Putin! I have too many dear friends in Ukraine!!!) Basically Putin wants to take over the world. He wants to be in control of the oil. And looks like he is on his way to doing so. Putin is a strong leader, he is ultra conservative but believe me you do not want him over Obama no matter what you think! He hates homosexuals, allows/ encourages them to be attacked. He hates anyone who is not Russian he hates the disabled, uses Orphans to send political messages....,I'm seeing people post they'd rather have him than Obama.... You really have no idea!!!
I've seen several remarks from folks over the last few months about how strong Putin is and how conservative he is....that is true but remember he doesn't like YOU!
I understand that many in the USA are tired of having a weak spineless leader but if you are going to look up to anyone look up to try this guy
Last night our son Shad off handedly asked us what was an abortion as we were cleaning up after supper. I gulped....so did Jon, we were quiet for a minute. How do you explain to your child about the killing of other children? We weren't discussing abortion. The news wasn't on. It was an earth shaking question. When we explained to him....his face actually blanched. There was a look of disbelief & horror on it. I truly don't think I've ever seen that look on his normally very happy face. He asked why didn't the police stop it! And we had to explain that it is legal in America. Our 12 year old son was horrified and shocked....yet we adults allow this to continue.
Today Planned Parenthood's director Cecile Richards had to tell the truth under oath on Capital Hill. Here is arecap of it, written by Matt Walsh.
Big news happened today. Planned Parenthood testified on Capitol Hill. Fittingly for an organization that murders 300 thousand children a year, it was a bloodbath. Planned Parenthood lies about literally everything, nothing they say about anything can ever be believed or taken seriously, and every point and every statement they make is either an obvious untruth or a really obvious untruth. You can only imagine, then, what happens when these people are forced to give honest answers under oath. It's like opening an overflowing garbage can after it's been sitting out in the hot sun for a week. Only, in this case the garbage can is filled with the dismembered remains of murdered infants.
The stench of death and lies seeps out of every Planned Parenthood clinic, so when forced for the first time in their history to actually admit to a few basic facts, the results were devastating. Or they should be devastating and they would be if we lived in a culture that possessed even the faintest affection for the truth. It started badly for Cecile Richards and company when a forensic analysis earlier in the day determined that the undercover Planned Parenthood videos were not manipulated or deceptively edited at all. Even the shills Planned Parenthood hired to investigate the videos last month concluded that there was no "widespread evidence of substantive video manipulation." We've now had two forensics investigation, one paid for by Planned Parenthood, that have both confirmed the authenticity of the videos. Still, Cecil Richards breathlessly repeats the claim that the videos were "doctored" despite two separate investigations -- including her own -- explicitly stating otherwise.
As I said, these people lie about everything. This is the level of dishonesty we're dealing with. Total. Complete. Pathological. They could stare at a brick wall two feet from their faces and tell you it isn't there (of course, I would then insist they run into it headfirst to prove their point). As noted late term abortionist Adolf Hitler once said, if you tell a lie often enough, people will believe it. Planned Parenthood tells the same lies every day, all day, unrelentingly, and the dupes in this choose to country believe it. Cecile Richards' testimony was disastrous. She was forced to sit quietly as Rep. Chaffetz outlined how Planned Parenthood -- a "non-profit" -- spends millions of dollars on lavish parties, banquets, travel, and exorbitant salaries. The head of the nation's largest abortion provider then reported that her position at this humble little charitable child killing outfit pays her over half a million dollars a year. Next, after repeatedly claiming on the record that Planned Parenthood performs mammograms, she had to admit precisely none of her 600+ clinics conduct the procedure. To be clear: this is a lie she told, a lie her supporters repeated ad nauseum, and a lie she just admitted was a lie under oath. This is a woman with no shame, but I suppose you could expect nothing less from a person who pays activists to throw condoms at presidential candidates (another worthy venture for taxpayers to fund).
Things only got worse for Baby Killers R Us from there. When asked if a child born after a failed abortion would be provided care, she said she'd "never heard of that circumstance happening." It was a fascinating statement considering abortion survivors just testified in front of this very same committee. I guess denying the existence of people who were just in the room was, in her estimation, a better strategy than admitting they'd let the child die right in front of them, as Planned Parenthood officials have testified in the past. Later, Richards had to confirm that Planned Parenthood raked in 127 million dollars "in excess of revenue" last year, while dramatically reducing the number of "additional services" it provides. Now, I'm no economist, but I'm pretty sure "excess" revenue is the same as profit. So today we learned -- although some of us have known it for years -- that the "non-profit" tax funded Planned Parenthood actually earns over 100 million dollars of profit. Only in the nightmarish fantasy land of pro-abortion propaganda could 127 million dollars in profit equal no dollars in profit. I wonder, precisely at whatpoint does profit become profit? Could Apple call itself non-profit by this logic? Is Microsoft a charity? Is McDonald's really nothing but a philanthropic endeavor? If a company can make nine figures in profit and still be non-profit, haven't we effectively destroyed the meaning of the term?
But the most significant moment came early on when Cecile Richards again confessed to being a dirty rotten liar, admitting that abortion does not account for "3 percent of their business," as she and her minions have repeatedly claimed, but in fact abortion is a full 86 percent of their non-tax funded revenue. As some of us have been saying for years, abortion is almost their entire business. Everything else is a smokescreen. A front. It's like a store that sells old VHS Disney tapes in the front and hardcore porn behind a door in the back. Everyone knows it's really a porn shop. Just like everyone knows Planned Parenthood is an abortion warehouse and nothing more. Of course, none of this matters much. Planned Parenthood supporters have largely sold their souls and their brains. If you're willing to defend an organization that kills over a quarter of a millionhuman beings every year, I wouldn't expect you to be too concerned about stupid, pesky little things like honesty and truth. Regardless, we should all take notice of the fact that the entire Planned Parenthood narrative just crumbled and fell apart on live TV this afternoon. Some might consider this a notable development
So if you are interested in watching it and confirming for yourself what the director of Planned Parenthood said, please feel free to do so. I watched some of it, it made me sick. I've watched all the videos that have come out about Planned Parenthood and it was almost more than I could handle. I watched them like I watch documentaries on the Holocaust, I do it to honor those who died, even though it leaves me with a sick feeling in my stomach.
How can people allow this? I guess a 12 year old has it right.....
Steve came home for the weekend and we had a great time. On Saturday he took Shad to a movie and I went and spent some a gift card at the bookstore! I found another author I really like Victoria Thompson.
It's so nice to have Steve close enough to come home some weekends...it's just sad to take him back to college on Sunday afternoons!!! There's always a little hollowness in my stomach when I drop him off. It's funny I drop him off in the parking lot of the building I lived in 30 years ago this year. NOW that is ironic to me. It's one of the few places that has not changed one iota at the college, it's still cramped and hard to get in and out. On our way out, I was thinking how I used to park my old brown Comet there in that same parking lot....it's just funny/sad to me....
While I was dropping Steve off, Jon took Sarah into Urgent Care. It seems like she's had too many really wet diapers lately and has been cranky. She's also had some unusual bruising on her legs. I was worried about a UTI/Kidney infection and/or anemia. She did so good to go pee-pee in the little "bonnet" they gave her. Jon got really stressed about it, but she performed perfectly:) The blood work....they couldn't do it. We had to take her back Monday and it took 4 people to hold her down. Everything came out completely normal. We are assuming the little round bruises are just from her being active and our floor is not carpeted so it's easier for her to bruise herself . They just were small and bothered me (I've read too many Care Bridge stories) I'm thankful she is no where near anemic:) The doctor (after seeing her in action) just thinks she bumps things, and just keeps right on going.
Speaking on her just going....today she got herself to the table AND got in a chair by herself! I turned around and was shocked!!!! If I hadn't been here alone with the kids, I would have assumed someone helped her but she did it by herself and was quite proud!
This is not the best picture but she was ready to eat! I'm so proud of her!!!! She is figuring things out. The other morning she was halfway down the hall, scooting on her bottom looking for me. She startled me then too! Exploring is hard for a little blind girl, but I'm so glad she is starting to do it here. At first she hardly left the couch without one of us carrying her.
We've also been having her "walk" with us holding her hands/arms. She is doing much better and it works for in the house. That helps so I don't have to carry her as much. We've been working with her so much that it's becoming a lot easier for her and for us too. It seems like that is easier for everyone rather than using a walker inside.
She is sleeping with me about every other night. I take her in Steve's room (yeah for a free room) and sleep with her. We've never been "co-sleepers" with any kid- me and Jon like our sleep way too much for that because you know Kids are not the nicest bedmates!!! But we've also tried to meet the kids' needs at various times in their lives. Sarah is a little bit on the roll of sleeping with me. But when she takes my hand and holds it, it just melts my heart. We always start her out in her bed and some nights she does fine. There are times when she wets herself and by the time I have her changed, she is awake enough to know she wants Mama. It's really not been too hard, I think she's had a lot of changes with the move, the new bed, the floor not having carpet on it (that's a biggie for her- a year ago we stayed at a cabin that had wood floors and she would NOT get on them) so I hope this will get her over her little hump in the road. At least I hope that in 20 years I don't have to sleep with her every night!!!!!
OH BTW...the recipe for Italian Pie- I had some mix left over so I cooked it for lunch on Saturday. I had bought some crescent dough ( reduced fat but still way too many chemicals) It tasted sooooooo good in the crescent rolls that even Steve liked it despite it having spinach in it. So you can try that if you want to. It's not as healthy.
Well I'll try and post some more recipes tomorrow. I had a reader send some really good sounding ones that I need to try, since my people want three hot meals a day.
Ok his birthday is all fun and games but MINE??? 50????? How the heck did that happen?????
Here's me at about 9 months old.
At my old year old bday party
My 4 year old bday party with my Uncle Mack. He moved in with us and I adored him. He died when I was 12 years old and it devastated me.
Kindergarten picture 1969
At my 8th bday party with a friend
High school Graduation 1983
With my roommate and some close friends at a Sadie Hawkins 1987
I rocked the 80's!
Christmas in college
Ok IN MY MIND, I feel like the girl in the last few pictures.....LOL however I KNOW that's not true!
Turning 50- that's huge! When there's a TV ad on and the business says "we've been in business for 50 years" it makes you think that that business is stable. It's been there a long time. Well that's what I'm feeling today. HAHAHAHA!
Honestly I feel in shock, to me 50 seems old. I apologize to anyone who is reading this who is 50 or older but.....in my mind 50 is not young. I even got an AARP card in the mail last week! ME! Who do those people think they are sending ME a card like that????
I look back over my life, over the stories I was told of hard times that I was too little to know about, and of all the memories I have and I know God is faithful. There are many things I don't understand, how or why God protected me like He did but I'm so grateful that as a baby and small child, that I found a sanctuary with my great aunt and she chose (at 66 years old) to raise me. As a mother, I am so grateful to my great aunt Bertha ( Boot Mama- ok we give Southern names) She saved my life in many ways. Also as a mother I don't know how she had the energy to do it!
I'm so grateful for the life experiences I've had, both good and bad. The good ones are precious, the bad ones make me thankful for the good ones!
Who would have thought I'd go to college, graduate and work a career job for years? I'm not sure I even had those kinds of dreams as a kid.
I'm amazed that I've been married now for almost 26 years to a wonderful man. I can hardly believe I have five kids, each with such unique stories. Me, who never really thought she'd be a mom! As a child, I remember when Nixon opened the doors of travel to China, never ever thinking for a moment that one day I would go there and adopt a son! I remember when the Wall fell, watching it on TV with Jon, never knowing what that meant for me- that one day I'd go and stay in Ukraine for weeks while adopting two little girls.
As a little girl, I'd watch shows based in NYC and I never dreamed that one day I'd live there and have a son born in Manhattan! Having the experience of giving birth was just amazing. It was awful but at the same time, there was this wonderful boy born to me! I was privileged to be able to birth a child! And it's been a privilege to watch him grow into a young adult and go from being his mom, to being a friend also.
I got to experience living in NYC, the largest city in our country. Me, just a poor girl from a little tiny pulp wood town in North Florida. I rode the subways and buses like a native. I got to explore areas all over the city and out on the island. What fun!
Of course, I also never would have dreamed that I'd lose twins while living there and almost lose my life in the process. The whole experience of their death just reminds me of NYC. I remember walking in the rain to the Upper West Side to meet with an undertaker to do all the paperwork to have them cremated. That was a hard time. There's nothing like NYC in the evening, in lightly falling rain. That will always be a memory to me that I'll hold sacred.
Growing up only knowing a very few handicapped persons. I never imagined that I'd be the mom of a handicapped child....and then two more..... I never knew of the privilege I would have to be able to be their mommy. What a blessing it has been in so many ways. Although as an avid diaper changer avoider it is very ironic that I have three little ones in diapers at age 50!
As basically an adopted child myself, I never dreamed when I was younger that I'd have the honor to walk out of two awful orphanages with my children in my arms! There are no words for it......
Over the years, I've got to travel and see a lot of the USA and aboard. Things I never even had the dream of doing as a young girl.
Even the hard times, losing the twins, Sam's birth and early years, Selah's accident.....all of those times helped me to know God better and to cling more tightly to Him. While I would not chose on my own to go through any of those events, I can look back on them assured of God's grace, provision and sufficiency. I've learned through it all that God is very faithful!
God's given me some life long friends that I'm so glad that they are in my life. People I can be real with and who "get me". Even if we all have busy lives, they are there.
I've got to do some incredible things over the years. I've seen miracles of provision, I've had the help of an angel while in China (yes really I think so)
I've managed to still be a pastor's/minister's wife without killing anyone....that's just should be a life time achievement award for me!
I saw that today and thought it was very fitting for me!
This one too!
I've got some regrets for some stupid things I've done in the past. Three specific things....and I have a few regrets for some things I did NOT do.... Although some of those things may have caused me to have other regrets LOL! But all in all I'm pretty happy with my life, and where I am at. I feel extremely blessed with my husband and children. They are the stabilizers of my life. When something goes wrong I remember that NOTHING really matters but what happens in our home. If somebody gets mad at me or upset with something at church, or in a friendship, other family or whatever.....if it's not between me and one of the other six people that share my house, then it's not worthy of my worry or pain! I really live by that! 100%! That causes me to put everything else in perspective! And it helps me to live calmly.
It's been an interesting life so far. I don't know what lies ahead, good or bad. Of course, I hope ONLY good but I know that is not realistic. I hope that I'm here on my 100th birthday, writing a blog talking about how young & silly I was when I turned 50! Ha! I hope I have a long healthy life ahead so I can take care of my younger children and watch my older ones hit milestones in their lives.
I'm thankful for every day that God has given me....all 18,263 according to one of my friends!!!
Tonight was Italian meat pies! This is a bit more work but soooo good. The recipe comes from Publix. It's amazing!!! I didn't take a picture but I also made a Spinach pie.
10 oz box of chopped spinach (I put in more)
6 slices of salami (we use Applegate brand- no nitrates)
2 pounds of ground meat (1 pd chicken and 1 pd beef)
1 tablespoon of Italian seasoning
1/4 cup of pimientos drained
1/4 cup of pepperoni (Applegate turkey pepperoni)
1 (13.75 oz) jar bruschetta spread
2 cups Italian blend cheese
1 pie crust (I use Fillo dough)
Cook the meat
add the Italian seasoing ( I also use pepper)
Cut into small pieces (I use kitchen scissors) then stir in pepperoni and salami
add the pimientos, spinach and bruschetta.
(You have to defrost and drain the spinach FIRST)
Stir in the eggs and cheese
Then put it in the pie crust
(you can top it with another crust)
or roll it in the Fillo dough
(I spray the top with olive oil)
Bake at 350 till golden brown.
I use the Fillo dough but you could use anything, even refrigerated crescent rolls, or just a regular frozen pie crust or make your own. That's what I'm planning on doing next.
For the Spinach Pie
a cup of cooked spinach
1/2 cup of ricotta cheese
1/2 cup of Italian blend cheese
****** I add flax seed to almost everything- you can't tell it's there and it's good for you!!!!!
I cooked the garlic potatoes with it and brownies
So I try to use organic ingredients when possible. The brownies are and use no oil. The Fillo dough is and quite healthy. I try to cook good interesting food for my family.
W e rarely eat out ( in one month only twice for me and twice for Jon, his were work related, mine was for fun!) We will be eating out as a family this weekend to celebrate Shad's and my birthday but we are trying to keep that to once a month.
We are without a doubt spending far less money and eating a lot more healthier at home, where I control what goes into our food. Honestly I like my cooking better than most restaurants, I just wish I could wiggle my nose and it was done and the kitchen cleaned up! Between diaper changes, housework, eye drops, teachers, therapists, phone calls.....it's hard to cook some days but "Necessity is the Mother of Invention" LOL I buy very few "easy" foods. Most of them have stuff in it we don't need so most of our cooking is from scratch or close to it. I do buy Amy's Organic Bean Burritos for Sam. When he is hungry, he can't wait, plus he has low blood sugar issues, we have to watch.
Hopefully by next spring, I'll get a garden in. It's been weird not to have one this summer, although last year's wasn't that great either. I may just have to get chickens too, we'll see.
Anyway try this recipe, it's so good! And thank the kiosk at Publix for the recipe.
Well it's been a busy week around here, I know, that's nothing new. Monday- Thursday are so busy but usually Friday is my free day! This past week, my close friend took me out to eat for my upcoming birthday and I went to the LIBRARY!
I love libraries, I always have since I was a little girl. The picture below is the OLD Perry Library. It originally was the county jail and back years ago, people were hung upstairs. The librarian, Mrs Parker loved me and let my little gory self go upstairs in the back and see where the executions were done. I spent many a day at that library, luckily not all of it in the execution room! I'd pick out all kinds of interesting books to read, but a few times the librarian would put one back. Hahaha! I'd love to see what she put back. Since I started reading at about three, I was reading adult books by the time I was in school.
Frankly I do not believe in censorship of books. I've never censored any book that one of my boys have read. Now if it had been a PICTURE book of nude woman, I'd probably censor that! (Most of the time, I'm trying to get them to read!!!!) My family as strict as they were in some things, did not censor my books. Books are ideas that will open your mind and make a person think about what they really believe and think. I seldom read "Christian" books. I can't stand any Christian novels I've read except a couple. I do like Christian autobiographies and biographies. Most of best selling theology books are not worth my money or time, in my opinion. Anyhow......
This is the old library.
Around 1975 or so we had a new library built in Perry. I was there when they broke ground! I got a shovel and everything. Then of course I was there at the dedication. The newspaper called me "the littlest librarian" LOL I'm pictured below with Mrs Parker the head librarian. Yes the dress was originally a "flower girl's dress" in some wedding I was in. I've been in so many weddings, and in so many hideous dresses, no wonder I eloped. My aunt made this dress for me. I think for a wedding at our church.
When I was in college, I worked so much and was busy with schoolwork all the time. The only book I remember reading for "pleasure" was 'The Act of Marriage'. It was a "Christian" sex book. My friends and I didn't have the nerve to check it out. Not us, our good names would not be on that book's record! So we'd get it and take it to the back of the library and read it together! Oh my gosh it makes me laugh just to think of it! I will not confess anyone's sin for them....but there are three other girls who were in that group!
During college I worked in the library. I started my freshman year. We were originally in the "old library" over the cafeteria. Then we moved to the "new library" that still houses the books at SEU. I helped with that move, it was a BIG job! The head librarian there, Brother Crammar and his wife became like family to me. He actually "gave me away" when Jon and I had a ceremony for his family. He and his wife were very quiet people. He was a true librarian. We went to his funeral, it was very quiet except for me. I bawled and sniffed the whole time. Jon kept handing me Kleenex. The family and everyone else was dead quiet (excuse the pun) When we got into the car to follow the hearse to the graveside, Jon turned to me and said "You do know you were the chief mourner don't you?" But I loved him! I regress but have to tell the story of when I went to a funeral with a co-worker. I did not know the elderly lady, my friend did and hated to miss her funeral. We were on our way to a meeting so I agreed to stop in for it, assuming it would be a short funeral. It was short. My co-worker got very worried when he looked over and I was bawling my eyes out. Tears were running down my face. He hustled me out as soon as it was possible, I'm sure hoping someone thought I was a long lost grandniece or something!!! We get back to the car and he asked me "WHY are you crying?" I didn't even know this elderly lady. It was not a particularly sad funeral at all. It was a very straight forward Catholic funeral. Sometimes I cry at funerals, copious tears.... Jon says I could have been a mourner back in the day when mourners were paid to cry and wail at funerals. Sometimes it doesn't bother me as much. We had this amazing elderly woman in our church, she was just everything you'd want in an older woman, with so much energy. All of a sudden, she got sick and no one could figure out what was wrong and then she passed very quickly. For some reason, I did not cry at her funeral. It was such a happy fun funeral. She was such a happy fun person and all we could think of was how happy she was in heaven. Her heart was so settled, she'd told us just days before how at peace she was....and she really really was at peace. anyhow....my mind wandered there for a minute. See what happens when I take a week off.......Ok let me get back to my blog on libraries.........
Where ever we've lived, one of the first things I've done is to find the library and get a card. When we traveled in ministry, we often stayed at housing that was for missionaries. We would plan our speaking engagements around the housing. So at one point, we stayed in Hounea Path, South Carolina for three months. I found the little library and a cat there. Another time we stayed in Falling Waters, West Virginia for a few months at our church's campground (in a cabin), I found the library. Once we moved to Brooklyn New York, I was in heaven! We had a local library just a couple of blocks away. But the BIG Brooklyn Library was just a few miles away, off of Prospect Park.
Wow that picture brings back memories!!! Then when we moved to NJ for awhile (I'm sorry I do not like NJ!) I found the little library in Stanhope NJ to spend time in. It was the one thing that kept me sane while we lived in that god forsaken village of ice.....
Then back to Florida and back to the libraries I know most.... Since living in our small town for 10 years, I have three small libraries to chose from. One downtown (the worst one even tho it's new), one on the outskirts of town and one in another small town close by. I was so excited when our town was getting a new library....I shouldn't have been. Same old books, same grumpy ladies, just a cleaner place. I've never called a mayor before, but after I visited it for the first time, I called our mayor/city manager to complain. My feeling was that so much was spent on the building, but the floor space was probably the same size or smaller for books. There were very few new books, and it seemed a lot less of the old one made the move. There is plenty of room for computers and that bugs me! Although out of fairness I will share that we have used the study rooms there for Sam's "GemIIni" program during the move and while we were waiting for WiFi so he would stay caught up on his speech/word recognition program.
I'm all about books. I don't want a Kindle or anything like that, I like a book, something I can hold in my hand. I'm totally old fashioned when it comes to that!
Jon is a reader too. When we first got married, we were at my grandma's both of us sitting on the couch, READING! She rolled her eyes and said "Thank God he likes to read too", as if I'd marry someone who didn't love to read. I do have friends who don't read, I just don't understand them! HOW can someone not want to read???
Confession time I stayed up till 2 am reading last night although I knew I had to be up early this morning. Last night I read Rhoda Janzen books, 'Mennonite in a Black Dress' and 'Does This Church Make Me Look Fat' I was roaring with laughter in some parts!
We have tons of books. Before our move, I made him get rid of boxes full and I did the same. I kept ALL of my Agatha Christie books and some others that I just treasure so much. One book that I found at a thrift store years ago. is called 'Papa Was A Preacher' by Alyene Porter. To this day I can not read that book without laughing out loud. It's threadbare, but beloved.
So I encourage you to read, go to your libraries, take your kids....... find books in thrift stores. go to bookstores..... Love books!