Friday, August 24, 2012

Missing Selah

Selah is still having unexplained fevers, she has been checked for everything you can think of...the fevers make her heart rate go back up into the 150's.

Today was just a sad hard day. This evening we went to Walmart & picked up a few things for the kids then we ate supper with them and I gave Sam and Sarah a bath. I laid down with Sam for awhile & he kept hugging me, that was so nice! Jon is staying over there tonight, his back has really been giving him fits again & I think that bed works better for him. We don't' want another problem with his back! Plus Sarah is crying some at night which is not like her. I think she misses mommy & daddy.

Thanks for all your prayers, we really need them. We are still praying for our girl to wake up. I miss her so bad...I can't even describe how much I miss her and her funny little ways. I'm so angry that we only had 3 months with her before this happened. She's been through Hell in her short little life & finally had a family and we had our girls...now...it's just awful!

These past three months have been the happiest of my entire life. I told Jon several times that I'd never been happier. I can remember just being in the laundry room & thanking God for my life, telling Him how content I was and how blessed. Jon said the day of the accident he was thinking that Life was just so good....now I truly can not imagine being really down deep happy again. My little girl is in a coma, with so much brain damage she can't even swallow...without a miracle from God, this is where she is. It's hard to imagine that just a few days ago she was running & playing and getting into everything! I want my Selah back so bad! Please keep praying. I've never asked God for much, just for my kids...and I'm begging for my Selah to come back to us. It's seems like for some reason, that has been the area in my life where I've had the greatest joys & the greatest sorrows. I don't understand WHY we have gone through so much, I think I've had my share of heartache in life and them some.

I was thinking today of everything and for some reason God has not chosen in the past to deliver us from situations but He has given us the grace to go through situations. This time I am begging God with all that is within me to deliver us from this! but I pray that we will be like the three Hebrew children who said "Oh King Our God is able to deliver us but even if He does not do so, we won't bow" Please pray for deliverance for our child. Pray that god will bring her out, restored to herself. Selah was very delayed, around a 12-18 month level, although she was 8 yrs old. But we adored her right where she was! We'd give anything to have that little personality back! Please pray!!!!



32 comments:

  1. Still praying day and night for all of you. I'm sure Selah is comforted by your voices and your touch and misses interacting with you too. If there is anything else you can think of that we can do to help you, please let us know. You have so many of us that are standing with you and want to help you even though we've never met.

    Sue H.


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  2. I saw your blog on Amy Martin's Facebook page. What a sweet, precious family. I am praying for you. God's Hand is on you. Trust Him no matter what. He can see things that we can't. I thank our good Shepherd for that! Praying for God's wisdom, peace, and His leading in your lives. Our paths may be unknown to us, but He knows everything ahead of us and we are safe when we follow Him.

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  3. We are praying hard for your family in MI! So sorry you had a tough day.

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  4. My heart breaks for you and your family. I know there are no words that can bring comfort to you, your husband, your children, or your family and friends at this terrible time.

    I testify to you that one day you WILL experience joy, deep abiding joy again, regardless of how Selah's life turns out. I know this from experience, but I also know it will not happen soon.

    Hold on to your faith and hold on to each other. Know that many, including me, are petitioning God on your behalf. I pray He will wrap you in His love as you walk through this valley. lr

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  5. I'm praying for you to see your Selah somehow someway.

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  6. This is such a tragedy....There are just some things we will never understand until we are on the other side and face to face with God. I think of Job when God answers him and says, "And where were you when I put the earth in place...."
    God Knows..... you know that already. I am praying for your family and that the Lord will give you MORE faith and MORE trust.... I pray for Selah's healing and that she will be able to worship our Lord too.
    We serve a Loving God who's ways are not ours.... Sometimes we just don't understand.

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  7. Praying here in Indiana.

    janet and gang

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  8. and many are praying with you, dear one, loved by God.

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  9. and many are praying with you, dear one, loved by God.

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  10. Praying for your family. If you feel lead check out http://www.drperlmutter.com/ he is a doctor who has written several books regading improving brain function through diet and the use of hyperbaric oxygen. Treating people following stroke, brain damage etc. God Bless.

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  11. Yvonne Sweetheart, you are not alone. Please know how very much we all care and weep and watch for that cloud the size of a man's fist to appear signaling the power of God's grace, not like rain but a hurricane to make your baby's life... And yours good again.

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  12. “Pastors are supposed to be unshakeable pillars of faith, right? But at that moment, my faith was hanging on by a tattered thread and fraying fast. I thought of the times where the Scripture says that God answered the prayers, not of the sick or dying, but of the friends of the sick or dying – the paralytic, for example. It was when Jesus saw the faith of the man’s friends that he told the paralytic, “Get up, take your mat and go home.” At that moment, I needed to borrow the strength and faith of some other believers.” -Todd Burpo, Heaven is for Real.

    We'll be right here lifting your whole family in prayer and BELIEVING for a perfect healing! Selah, get up! Take your mat and go home!!!

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  13. Oh Yvonne, i cannot stand to think of how hard this must be for you. Praying for your sweet Selah to be fully restored to you. Praying that God would stretch out His mighty healing hand, and heal Selah. Praying this in Jesus' name.
    Praying for peace and rest for you too.
    In His hands,
    Alycia

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  14. New to this blog via Facebook (Patterson family) and wanted to let you know I am soooo sorry you all are having to go through this trial and that I will pray for your sweet little Selah! I pray that she will develop the appropriate gag/cough reflexes, that her heart rate will stabilize etc. She is young, new brain connections are possible. Actually ANYTHING is possible with God, our Great Physician! Lord, lay Your hand upon Selah and her family. Restore her to a healthy state. Give the family strength! Amen!

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  15. I won't stop praying.. I haven't stopped since I first heard about Selah.. I check this blog almost hourly.. I am so sorry for the pain you are going through.. It's so hard even to read about the pain you are feeling.. I can't imagine living it. I wish there was more I could do but I promise to keep praying.

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  16. Still praying!!! Madison had a lot of fevers in the beginning too. She'd turn bright red and be sot hot and her heartrate ran in the low 200's. It's like their temperature sensor is just off....they get warm from a blanket or something and the brain can't yet tell itself to cool off. It is very common in the beginning with brain injury. Keep talking to her like you are and tell her that so many people are praying for her and love her! We won't stop praying....don't worry!

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  17. I saw your story on Facebook and I read through a lot of your blog posts. Your faith is such a testimony of God's goodness! Stay the course! You and your husband are going to have such huge rewards in heaven. I lost my brother 5 years ago when he was 20 in a car accident ... I can definitely relate to longing for that eternal day when there will be no more death or sickness or crying or pain. "Behold, I will make all things new." Thank you for sharing your story and keeping God at the center of it all. He is being glorified through this. I am praying for dear Selah and that God would restore her fully to you. This sounds incredibly hard to go through. My God give you miraculous strength and endurance. Much love, Heidi. P.S. See you in heaven some day where we can share our stories with each other!

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  18. I love your family picture....

    This momma's heart is crying out to God for you and Selah. *tender hugs*

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  19. HUGs...I can't imagine your pain. Praying for strength & for Selah. :)

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  20. I believe I would feel just as you do. My heart breaks at the thought. I will keep praying for God to restore Selah and grant you the petitions of your heart. I love the new blog picture of your beautiful family. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and needs with us, that we can know better what to pray. God be with you and strengthen you.

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  21. I have only just learned about this (been away from home with limited Internet access)...I am so sorry to hear about the accident. I will pray for Selah and for you.

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  22. We are praying so hard for you! For a miracle, for peace. On our knees, in the car, reading your words...always praying.

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  23. I am still praying for you and Selah, and so glad to see you are still praying for a complete healing for her! I am praying for the same thing and will not stop! God says it is never His will for one of these little ones to be taken, so I know for certain it is not his will for Selah or your family to suffer. I will continue praying for His full will to be revealed to your family and Selah, and I know it is not only good, but incredibly good, and comes with full joy (as Jesus taught). Praying fervently.

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  24. Prayers being said for all of you.

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  25. Praying for you, Yvonne, and praying for Selah and your whole family. What a terrible heartache! I can't even imagine it and I start to cry when I think about the pain you must be going through. I will pray with you that you will be like the Hebrew children, and that God will strengthen you no matter what happens.

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  26. I don't know you or your family, but I am so moved by your faith. This morning I added Selah and your family to our prayer time at church and through out the week. I pray God restores what the enemy has stolen and your beautiful daughter is healed completely, mind, body, soul. Keep looking to Him and His promises!!

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  27. As a mother, my heart understands. I don't know what you know but still yet...

    Praying hard with you and for you! Thanking God for lively hope and resurrection power...
    1 Peter 1:3

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