I really don't have many regrets in my life. But I do wish I'd let myself have more fun in my teen and 20's. Looking back, I was way too serious and old. Oh I had fun but I took LIFE far too serious and worried too much. I worked too hard. I guess being raised by old folks, colored my views on life. Now I'm not saying to be lazy or anything like that, but I should have lightened up some and enjoyed myself more. Even into my 30's, I needed to "let it go" Believe me, I truly have some good friends who put up with me in my teens and 20's when I was trying to get the whole world saved...... (they will read this and laugh and know EXACTLY what I mean!) And the shocker is they are still my friends!
Looking back, I was just too intense, about everything, from saving the world, to college, to work..... I couldn't put things in their place and leave them there. What I mean is I'd worried about my job, while I was at college or I'd worry about a class when I was out with friends. Or I was a little too involved in ministry while trying to do all these other things. I can remember my friends going out and they'd try and get me to go and I'd stay back and work or do something with the ministry. I could never give myself any time off. Even later on, I felt like I had to do perfect on my job and I'd bring work home all the time......really so much of that stuff I should have just "let it go"
Let me clarify about the ministry part......EVEN with ministry people can be too intense. When Jon and I married, we were both too intense about ministry. Oh dear Lord......help us.....! LOL We both felt like we always had to be "doing" Having kids helped us to realize you have to focus on relationships before anything else.
NOW with heavier responsibilities than I ever imagined I'd have, I'm a much more relaxed person. does that make ANY sense??? I'm glad I found more of a balance, but wish it had not taken me so long to do so. I look back and think "there were drugs for That" LOL
Another regret I have is ever worrying about what someone thought of me......yeah that is gone LOL....
Sooooo.....today I took cookies to Shad's classroom because it is his 11th birthday!!!!