Well today one of those "waves" hit me. It washed over me right during Jon's sermon. We humans are funny. We can act like nothing is the matter even when our heart is breaking. I have no idea what triggered the "wave" But as Jon was speaking and I was sitting on the front row with my kids...a longing for Selah- the Selah before the accident- washed over me so hard that it seemed to take my breath away. I could remember her little babbling noises and how she loved going to sit at the table to eat. I could remember the funny little way she tried to drink out of a cup. SHE came back to me in my mind. OMG....all these memories just flooded my mind, so clearly. Sometimes I try and remember Selah and can't....but today I could remember her and oh did it make me miss her so much.
I had to ride that wave of memories in my head till it was gone. It left me wishing for all that was lost....Oh Selah.....
So I managed, grateful for being able to remember various nuances of Selah......I gathered myself together.
Then as my husband was finishing up his sermon, he sang a song with the congregation. Well he didn't have the words of the song....got it a bit messed up. Then as the crowning touch managed to sing about God as being created rather than the Creator! -the song is taken from Revelation 4:11 "Thou art worthy, O Lord, to receive glory and honor and power: for thou hast created all things, and for thy pleasure they are created. Thou art worthy O Lord." He sang it as "and for thy pleasure thou art created." Anyhow for me, that just took me over the edge. I was pushing down my laughter and just looking straight ahead. BUT my husband had to mention his mistake and the fact I was trying not to create a scene and that just did me in! I started laughing a bit hysterically!! You HAVE to be a pastor's wife to get it I'm sure but there are just some things that totally crack me up and singing a song really wrong does that !
So I went from a deep despair to laughing in a matter of minutes. Humans are strange like that, sometimes we can't handle our feelings very well. Or maybe God helps us to be able to be distracted when sorrow rolls over us. Or maybe I'm just crazy myself.....
We did take pictures today
My satilitte or computer is messing up once again and I can't see the pictures!
They are from playtime yesterday and church today. Hope you enjoy!