Healing Faith etc......

Here we go again...

Today we had a couple visit our church. Nice couple..always glad to see new faces....BUT...my husband and I get socked with a whole rant of "word of faith" teaching on healing....

What is up with people who think they have all the answers to sickness/disease? Why MUST they bother us? Go find some children's hospital ward and clean it out if you have so much faith ....I get so tired of people (especially people who are NOT in full time ministry) who want to "share" with us scriptures about healing! Does my dear son bother you that much? I LOVE MY SON JUST THE WAY HE IS!!!!! I'd love to see your numbers on how many blind, brain damaged children you "healed" I imagine your numbers are about where mine and every one's else is at! ZERO!

Through this journey with Sam, I have had such a simple sweet trust in God to bring us through. I do not blame God nor do I question Him. God is good, even when times are rough. God has revealed Himself in such a sweet way as we've trusted HIM. So that part of my journey has been wonderful!

The part of the journey that totally SUCKS is when things happen like they did today. People who don't really have a leg to stand on bibiically, want to take scriptures and turn them into some type of silly formula that supposedly brings forth healing. I'm so glad my relationship and understanding of God is so much deeper and fuller than that. I believe God can heal, but it's not up to me who He heals. I'd love to be able to bring healing to everyone but that doesn't seem to be God's plan. Not everyone gets healed, in fact few people get a physical healing on this earth. Now I'm not talking about the time God healed your headache, or your toe nail...I mean true life changing healings...cancer, aids...etc....I think alot of what we call "healings" are nothing more than the body behaving as God intended for it to do and the headache goes away. I get so tired of people telling me how God healed their headache....Look in the Bible for bibically healing...no medical intervention, a total healing...Alot of times someone will say they've been healed of something, say cancer, but in fact they had surgery, chemo etc...that's not a bibical healing. Not to say that one shouldn't be thankful and grateful to God for any help but let's not degrade the term healing. Someone told me that Sam had received a healing for his eyesight when he had the implants. Now I am so grateful to God for the doctors and the wisdom they've learned BUT that is not a healing! I think God could do alot better than have me do 30 eyedrops a day if He healed Sam!

So WHY do people feel they have to share this "inside knowledge" with us? I've had some crazy things said to me over the years and I'm sure some people I know have wanted to say more but they stop because they KNOW not to go there with me!

Today was a great Sunday, everything was a go and so I speak to a new couple, we have a mutual friend and almost from the beginning of the conversation, I start to feel uncomfortable. I try to steer the conversation back to other things and to speak matter of factly about my son but the conversation keeps getting steered back into uncomfortable waters...I mean do I really what to have a theological debate a few minutes before church is to start? Anyhow I walk away and just try to forget the bad parts ...good service...we have a short prayer for Sam since he is having surgery this week (evidently Jon did not pray the prayer of faith for Sam)..Jon preached a good uplifting message...then after church, unbeknown to me, the husband gives a list of scriptures to Jon about healing etc and begins to lecture Jon...Jon let the guy know he had read Kenneth Hagin too (and was so passed all of that!)....It really made my husband mad too...Here you've never met us before and you begin to show how more "spiritual " you are to us. You don't live our life! You have no idea what we've walked through!

You know it looks so foolish to me and to the watching world...all the silly Christians who run around like chickens with their heads cut off claiming this and that, taking authority over this or that when they have no more authority or spiritual growth than the man in the moon! I'm so glad that my relationship with God is not one of a frantic little human who has to repeat a mantra over and over again until God takes pity on me! I trust God even when I don't understand, even when the winds are blowing...and I treasure the fact that I can trust God through it all! It's taken time for me to get anywhere near that point and it's only through his grace that I'm able to do so!

Anyhow I just had to vent...