Tuesday update

Thanks so much for the sweet positive comments on here and emails I've gotten!  You guys are great!!!!  You get me all fired up!  I don't need any of you hanging out with me at the hospital, we'd all get kicked out hahahaha!!!  Thank you!


My heart is so heavy for the tragedy in Oklahoma....it's hard to grasp it....  Actually there is so much going on in the world in general and in my world (of my friends and family)  heartaches, sicknesses, deaths....it seems like a time of great need.  Just today there were so many needs among my friends,  older parents sick and dying, siblings very sick, accidents, several families in the process of adoption have heard the child they were going for, has passed away or is very sick...one child just home 3 weeks passed away from her health issues.... so many sad hearts in this world.....the only thing I can think is that "God is near to the brokenhearted"  and this world with all its heartache is NOT our home, we are just passing through....thank God this is not IT for the christian...we have an eternal Hope! 

Today I took Selah to her neurologist's appointment.  He sees Sam and is a very common sense doctor.  He really just talked to us about things, nothing new, no med changes.  He did really look at her eyes and feels there maybe some optic nerve damage but wants confirmation from an opthmologist, not that that really makes a big difference in anything we do with Selah.  We talked about who Selah was before the accident and how that has to be taken into account.   He seemed shocked at how delayed she was before hand....  It was sad in one sense...I felt he held back from being discouraging.  He did say we may still see improvement but that the longer time goes on with no major improvement, the less chance of it happening.  We've been told that many times so it's ok.  We realize that if improvement doesn't happen significantly in the first few weeks....then there is little chance the child will be back to her "normal" self ever.  Brain injury from a near drowning or loss of oxygen is the worst kind of brain injury.  I have had people tell me about someone they know who had a car accident or whatever and had a brain injury and how they astonished the doctors...etc....   That does happen in some cases like that because the whole brain is not injured.  With lack of oxygen the WHOLE brain is injured and it makes full recovery much more difficult.  It's still sad to hear....and to tell the story again... I almost broke down, but I caught myself in time.  I really hate to cry! 

She hasn't stormed for over 24 hours now!  The new med may be working!!!    Our main day nurse gave notice today, she is taking a job at a facility nearer her home and less hours and more benefits.:(  She is going to help me interview someone to take her place.   It will be hard to replace her! 


Next month I am going to my 30th year high school reunion....yes 30th!  I have to say I am really excited:)   I went to the 10th and it was not anything much to write home about....I missed the 20th altogether, I think we were going to Branson Missouri  around the same time...but now thanks to Facebook, I've reconnected with old friends and feel much closer to many of them than I ever did in school!  I think we have all gone through LIFE and are much more realer people than when we were in high school  (at least I hope so LOL)   I was not a "popular girl"  I came from a a strange family situation (for my era, in a small town)  and on top of that, we went to a Pentecostal church!  We were poor but most everyone in town was pretty poor.  It's funny, now I look back at folks I thought were "rich" and realize they weren't!   No one had alot back then.  People used to make fun of my glasses and freckles or that I wasn't allowed to wear pants for awhile...  To me it's just funny now.  

Growing up in a very small town, we were all pretty much together from kindergarten to 12th grade.  You kinda knew everyone...  so everyone has some kind of history with each other. We all have the same memories, same teachers, same elementary, junior high school and high school....   I left for college after I graduated and only went back a few summers so I really haven't had much contact with most of my classmates.   I do have a BFF from my childhood, who I will always be close to and I get to spend a whole long weekend with her!!!!  WOOHOO!!!!!!!!   We haven't had more than a meal together in almost 10 years!  We've stopped and met her for lunch or dinner when we've driven through Perry but that has been it!  Thank God for telephones and emails!   Growing up we were inseparable...in other words, I lived at her house:)  Her parents put up with me and nurtured me.  I loved being over at the Harris house....it was fun and full of love and laughter.  We laughed alot...if you'd ever had told me back then we would see so little of each other as adults, it would have killed me!   When you have a friend from your childhood, they really "get you"  They knew you as a child, a teen, they knew the silly you and your family too.  They often knew the dreams you had for the future....  It's really special to have a long time friend like I do and I am so thankful for Angela!   I can't wait to spend time with her!!!!   We've been close friends for 35 years and friends since childhood. 

I'm looking forward to seeing others too.  I think when you've lived half your life ( most of us will turn 48 this year)  and gone through LIFE....it's kind of a survivor's meeting LOL...  Who'd the heck ever thought we'd get this old???  Not me!  What is weird, since I haven't seen many of my classmates, they are forever 17 years old in my mind....then I see them in pictures on FB and I think..."well they are not quite 17 anymore LOL"   What unnerves me the most is seeing guys I had crushes on who have GRAY hair!!!!!!!!!  (although I have to say I didn't hae that many crushes on guys in my grade!  Ewwww Gross!  LOL)    But the grey hair is the oddest thing to me, it doesn't seem possible!   That is what makes me feel old:)

It's going to be a good girls weekend:)  Lots of laughs I'm sure!!!  It gives me something to look forward to:)  How much weight can I lose in a month??????

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So please keep praying for Selah.....sometimes I get more focused on the day to day, like getting her through this illness but I do pray daily for God to heal her and bring her all the way back to us!