Early this week I was shopping for the boys' Easter baskets. I always make their own as they like certain candy and it's just more fun for us. I usually don't make Sam one. He doesn't like anything sweet except some real fruit. It's really hard to do some of the more traditional things with/for him. Even Christmas, he doesn't understand opening presents and usually gets rather bothered by all the noise confusion...
So I started getting very upset in Walmart! As I was walking around, I was so sad about life and Sam's disabilities...it swept over me like a flood. I was in the candy aisle battling tears & anger and really trying to deal with my emotions. I haven't had anything like that hit me for awhile! It makes me MAD that he can't enjoy all the things all the other kids do!!!!!! Not that I want him rotting out his teeth with candy but I want him to be NORMAL!!!!!! And that is never gonna happen-it's so hard to deal with sometimes!!
As I was trying to deal with all of this in my heart, I thought about the things that Sam does enjoy and began focusing on the things he loves and I had an inspiration...I filled his basket with cans of black eye peas, soup, a ball and some toys for the bath tub. So I chose to focus on those things that make him happy and not be overwhelmed with the "normal kid things" that he doesn't care about and it really helped me.
Sure I'm still a bit sad, all holidays do this to me because he doesn't react like all the other kids but he's my boy & I would have chosen HIM over all the other kids in the world anyhow so it just makes him unique!
So focus your life on the positives rather than the negatives and believe me it will help. There are many things we can't change but we can learn to roll with life's punches- it makes life easier....
Our Basket of life is that way! It should be filled with those things we need, use and a splash of want. We have always made our own baskets for the girls. Mostly school supplies with a simple treat even if it is a normal daily treat like fruit! I am so blessed that my kids are always happy with whatever they find. Each year it makes me wonder if I have been as kind to Our Father when he fills my daily basket. Do I say thank you for what he gives? Its hard when I dont feel good. But even then I say thank you.
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