Chosen

Chosen One

If before you were born, I could have gone to Heaven and saw all the beautiful souls, I still would have chosen you...
If God had told me "this soul will one day need extra care", I still would have chosen you...
If He had told me "that one day this soul may make my heart bleed", I still would have chosen you...
If He had told me "this soul would make me question the depth of my faith", I still would have chosen you...
If God had told me "this soul would make tears flow from my eyes that would overflow a river", I still would have chosen you..
If He had told me "our time spent together here on Earth could be short", I still would have chosen you...
If He had told me 'all that you know to be normal would drastically change", I still would have chosen you...
Of course, even though I would have chosen you, I know it was God who chose me for you...
Thank you God for allowing me to be Selah's mommy!

I went back reading over my blog, encouraging myself and I found this poem. It was written by a mom of a child with cancer. I copied it and used it in a post about Sam. But I thought it was very appropriate for Selah too. And the cool thing is we did chose Selah. We could have walked away from her when we met her, she had some behaviors that scared us and made us question our ability to raise her. But if you have read my earlier posts, those behaviors soon solved themselves since coming into our family. She was chosen, we had to make a commitment to the court to take her as our child...and we would do it again despite the heartache that has come. We chose her despite her mental and physical delays and we still chose to be her parents no matter what the future holds. We were blessed to add her and Sarah to our family.