In a couple of days we will be in September....that starts my "birth month" To be honest I've never paid much attention to my birthday since I turned 18! Well a few of them have freaked me out like turning 30 then 50 but this year it is the big 60!
Quite a few years ago I remember a conversation I had with some people. We were trying to figure out "when are you truly middle aged???" Back then I thought 35-40 years old....of course you know I was much younger than that! Now 35-40 year olds seem like babies to me! I'm definitely in late middle age at this point When do the senior years start? I get some senior discounts now! That's a freaking trip!
This is the time of life when me and all my friends say things like "How the heck are we so old" "1983 was just a few years ago" "How do we have grown kids?" Literally a few times a week now either with my husband or a friend we say things like "well it's gone by so fast" and we ask how this could have happened. It's really crazy to know there is no doubt I have more years behind me than ahead of me unless I live to be 120 years old.
When you are a kid life is endless and old age is so very far away. There's wonder and possibilities ahead....even young adulthood is like that. Looking back I think I felt like that until I was about 50 years old then the realization began creeping in and life started to change. Our 50's held surprise health issues, our kids all grew up and our older ones started college....and then went on to career jobs and their own homes. Even though they are close to us and we talk daily and see each other sometimes several times a week it's not the same and it will never be the same as everyone being under one roof again,
For us we have Sam and Sarah with us always and that is different than most people our age! None of my friends have to look for babysitters (caregivers) to go out to eat or go to the grocery store. We adore our "little people" and enjoy them so very much. But we never stop...when you have kids you realize that ONE day you'll have less responsibility but that's not our situation and it's hard at times. We don't have the freedom to collapse and go to bed at 8 pm if we want to, we can't be spontaneous at all LOL that is not even in our vocabulary! Everything takes planning - like today. Friday is a day off for Jon so we try and sleep in and made it to 8 am but had to get up and get everything done so I could take Sarah for a hair appointment and do a few errands. At this point in Sarah's life we have to be careful with what medicine she is given before going out because some of it makes her tummy work FAST! So that med can't be given until later. She has another med that she has to have 30 minutes before she eats so everything has to be be planned perfectly. Everything went smoothly but by the time I got home I wanted to climb into bed! But that's not happening! It's challenging to say the least the balancing act we do as well as Jon's full time job as a chaplain and a pastor. I would not change anything because that would mean not having them in our lives but "boss I'm tired!" But at night after supper we all sit in the living room together, Sam in his rocker, Jon is his recliner and me and Sarah on the couch together and it's so sweet. They don't really like the tv on so Jon and I read and just relax until it's time for bed. Then we go through all the steps of getting them ready for bed! I usually stay up after everyone goes to bed and read just because there is NOTHING at all that I have to do right then. It's so a freeing feeling.
So our lives are different than most folks in their 60's. I remember my great aunt Bertha (Boots) took me to raise as a newborn at 65 years of age! I'm just saying I would NOT take a newborn to raise at this point in my life. God bless her! She was an example to me and I do remind myself of what she did for me when I get weary.
But it's crazy to be on the cusp of turning 60 years old-it really blows my mind and I'm shocked by it! Pray for me!
So I had to set up a new FB page for MY REAL LIFE BY YVONNE please go and like/follow it. I'm still in the beginning stages of having Instagram/TikTok and I'm planning to do video/reels..My advisor aka oldest son who works in this field has really encouraged me to step out. He even wants me to change where my blog is!!! I'm not sure this "old lady" can handle that much change!
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