Thursday, March 13, 2014

Funny pictures....


Please take the time to go and vote!  We are only 29 votes from 500!  You can get TWO votes today by answering the question right.  MAY IS Mobility Month.....


http://www.mobilityawarenessmonth.com/entrant/selah-clanton-zephyrhills-fl/


Here are some pictures of me and Brownie today.  I took her to the dog groomer, she is all shaved and clean.  Someone put Brownie in our fence years ago.  We estimate she is about 13 or 14 years old.  We've enjoyed her from the first day and have felt blessed to have a dog like her.   Some mornings when I go out, she is slow to wake up and it scares me.  I love this old girl
 

 
 
 
 
 
 
And here I am in a real throwback Thursday picture....
1988 to be exact...
My college roommate's wedding
Not sure if I'll EVER forgive her for allowing me to wear a "mullet" so happily.....
 
 

 
LOL she is really a BFF and the great thing is they are moving to our area soon!!!!!  WOOHOO Let the good times ROLL!   My life will never be the same!
 
 
This is a short blog, got babies to get to bed longer one coming.....
 
Please vote!!!!
 
 
this is too funny....that is me, MISSING the bouquet....BUT not for lack of trying.  Look at all the other girls, just being sweet & pretty....I've got my shoes off and I'm going for it!!!!  LOL I got married 1 year and 2 months later LOL
 
 
 
 
 

 
 
 
 
 

 
 
 
 
 


 

 

 

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

The Burman's experience with Reece's Rainbow (Part 1)

 
Well this is the walk of victory.....
Shelly and her four new boys, home at last!
(thanks to the photographer!)
 
No these are not the children Shelly and her husband originally planned on adopting in Ukraine.  These are not the ones she left America for on December 8, 2013.....but they are the ones she returned home with on February 23, 2014!
 
Till now this could not be shared and this is not the whole story.  But this is a start.
 
I am happy to announce I am back and working with a computer now. For those of you who do not know my suitcase was lost in the Frankfurt airport and in it was my computer. Unfortunately, I believe it was taken rather than just lost because it was my carryon and not a check in. I have been without a computer for the last two weeks but in a way it has been a blessing because I have really needed this time with my family to try and find out new norm.

Speaking of new norm....that has been my main priority lately. If you all will recall we were planning on and prepared for older children and two boys and two girls but instead came home with four handsome young boys. This has meant redoing room arrangements, changing out closets and clothes and deciding who sits where at the dinner table. I have not been able to communicate with you all as much due to all of this but in all honesty I really needed this time for my family and to process all that happened while in Ukraine in addition to all the events that led up to the trip to Ukraine.

The boys are all adjusting so well to their home and family life. In all honesty I cannot believe we have not had to make any medical emergency runs or had any huge adjustment issues. Other than technical aspects such as who sits where in the van and dinner table, it is as if the boys have been with us for so long. This is so different than any other adoption experience we have had. I did have a ton of pictures to share with you but unfortunately those too were on my computer so any and all pictures you have seen are thanks in part to the many friends who have taken them. I do promise you that I will get some new ones taken and a whole post dedicated to the boys soon. Time seems to be spoken for these past few days so I will get on that soon.

As for how I am doing as so many people have pm's me to ask... that is a tough one to answer. On one hand my life is complete and perfect in all the ways I once dreamed of. I have what I consider to be MY perfect life. At the same time I have been processing the events of not only the 11 weeks in Ukraine but also the months of turmoil that led up to that time. I won't lie and say it is like when you are in labor and how you soon forget the pain of labor once you hold your child in your arms because that has not been the case. It was tough over in Ukraine. The toughest thing I can honestly say I have been through. I am not just speaking of the conflict that was happening all around the country but I am speaking of the loss my husband and I have had to come to grips with. You see we fought for, prayed for, planned for, and loved four beautiful children by the names of Catherine, Haven, Larson, and Jackson. But those children did not ever get to know the joy of being loved by a mommy and daddy. They are not enjoying the moments of playing in their backyard, going on outings with mom and dad, or being tucked in at night after having a bowl of ice cream. Instead, their lives were played with by the likes of those who think they lay claim to those children. Catherine is not sleeping under the beautiful warm, afghan made for her by a loving woman who prayed so hard for her. Larson is not hanging out at the Lego table with his brother Ethan building all sorts of creations. Haven is not playing dollies with her sister Reagan and whispering at night to each other. Jackson is not getting all of the therapy he deserves so that he can gain a level of independence. No. Instead they are all still languishing in the institution. This hurts me. It hurts my husband. God knows. He knows how much we love those children. He knows how very wrong the actions of Reece's Rainbow director and BOD and their facilitating team is. Our family and so many many of you fought hard to bring those four children home and into our family yet RR and their associates felt it was their "right" to determine if and how that would be. Our children were suddenly "not available to us once we were in country and that is a story upon which I cannot dwell but rather the story behind their grants not being disbursed and the attempt to silence our family is one that I shall bring to the forefront. Children's lives were played with and their futures left in shambles and that is something I will NOT stand for. I will not be silenced and my silence cannot and will not be bought at ANY price. I am not perfect but my love for those children is and that love is what will spur this declaration of my intolerance for the bullying and hypocritical actions of Reece's Rainbow and anyone else involved.
 
 
2nd installment

It is time a big heartfelt thank you is sent out to so many friends I know and the many I do not know. Brian and I truly were shown the love of you all who helped us to bring home our four boys. While in country literally thousands of dollars were raised in just weeks so that we could continue down our path of bringing home our four children.

For those of you just catching up, the four childr
en we have prayed for and worked so hard to bring home did not come home to our family. Not only were they not available to us but neither were their grants funds. Suddenly we were faced with the decision to adopt four other precious little ones. God knew the funds would come and how they would come. Trust became a major theme for me and hence my word for the year. I began focusing on that word as did Brian.

Our family chose to work with Grace Haven Ministries to raise the funds we would need for the boys. With the sudden turn of events we needed to raise what seemed to be an insurmountable amount of money. It seems like overnight the funds came in through friends, strangers, and anonymous people. Every time I turned on the computer the total of funds raised rose higher and higher. I personally felt defeated because I was not home raising that money in some fashion or another but so many of you reminded me of my word of the year. Listen, it was literally a miracle that those funds were raised! A MIRACLE!!

After a period of time it was brought to my attention that three of my boys had grants totaling over $8,000 through RR. Our attorney began communication with RR regarding the grants raised for MY BOYS but RR responded back with the fact that they now decided that they expect me to pay back one of the grants from our boys' Bulgarian adoption and then would give me the remaining funds but with stipulations attached. One of those stipulations was that I was to sign what is called a gag order which would prevent me from saying anything bad about RR or talking about anything with regards to them and this adoption. In other words all things I have shared about our experience with RR and our adoptions was to be taken down and I was to get others to do the same. We could not do that. Not when so many things were at stake and the main one being children. Our experience was ours to tell. Ours to share. We had shared facts and that was our right to. But not so much our right as our duty. Things were going on that were so wrong and to ignore it would make us just as guilty. No matter what amount of money we needed or that was available to us was going to have our morals compromised. We declined RR offer to release the boys' grants minus us paying back a grant (which was used to pay for our Bulgarian adoption facilitator's fees) and our signature stating we would no longer say anything about RR and what had happened to us.

Speaking for myself, I had never been so irate in my whole life to watch an organization I once so passionately supported utilize innocent children's grant funds to get back at someone who dared speak out against them. I was told that the reason RR decided to now demand repayment for the grant fund (even though they had not prior for over a year) was because I acted a bully towards them. Yes, it would have been easy on a whole lot of people to just take that money so that people did not have to work so hard to raise funds for us but then I could not look myself in the mirror. We were not going to take money and just let what was going on continue. We could have thought of ourselves and taken the money but that is not what any of this was about. It was and has always been about doing what is right and using funds that have been raised for children as a tool with which to silence those who dare speak out against RR is far from what is right.

I do not speak for others and their experiences even though I know there are many. I am speaking for my family and the experience we have had. So now my only questions are where did that $8,000 go and when will RR stop abusing families who seek truth and justice in adoptions?!
 
 
 
(BTW the whole issue in Bulgaria was not the Burman's fault, it was again something that was out of their hands totally.)
 
There will be more to share......
 
I'm sad that this all has happened.  As you may remember my husband and I were hoping to adopt one of those girls before Selah's accident.  So I was overjoyed when I knew the Burmans were planning on adopting her and giving her a good life.  We raised money on here, over $1000 that went to the adoption.  I was so glad to be a small part of things.  THEN this happened.....the Burmans were told they could not adopt the girls, or the older boys either.  The girls were unavailable to them.  And that made it too difficult for them to adopt the boys in that region.... Long story short, those girls were placed BACK up on the Reece's Rainbow page immediately following the Burman's court date  for the little boys.  So WHY is it that the girls are now available? 
 
I'm heartbroken the little 8 year old girl, the size of a 2 yr old is still stuck in Ukraine.  Every time but once when I saw that precious child, she was drugged.  My heart was so pulled towards her.   The other little girl, who played with us daily and who wanted a mommy is still in an institution....so sad....I know those girls personally....  It's not some STUPID game that is being played by silly people. 
 
BUT I am so thankful for the four little boys who have been spared such heartache.  They were in a good orphanage where they were taught so much.  They won't be transferred to an adult mental institution when they turn 4 years old.  They are safe, at home with a loving family who can help them have the best life possible. 


 
So this is their experience, told in their own words.....

Neurology Appointment, Piano lessons and PLEASE VOTE

Selah's neurology appointment with her new doctor was today.  It was an hour and half doctor appointment with the doctor himself.  He was very different in a great way.  He was very personable and even offered us coffee:)  He took the time to go back in her history, past the accident to get a good idea of who Selah is.  He may have found the diagnosis for the ORGINAL delay, we have to do some testing first.  He is FOR HBOT!!!!!!   He also is going to try a stimulate med on Selah to see if she will show more awareness.  He is definitely "cutting edge"  He is willing to try things and discuss things with me.  So different than the neurologist we'd been seeing.  He also took her off the blood pressure meds as most of the time her BP is low.  He is trying her on a med that will help her muscle spasticity as well.  So I'm thrilled with this guy!  In fact, I'm scheduling Sam and Sarah to see him. 

He also wants to go over her records and has told me some info to get that will give us a better idea of where Selah could possible go. 

Tomorrow we will start the new meds, I wonder when/if we'll see some changes.

So it was intense, and I'm exhausted mentally and physically.  He did not offer us a cure or much hope, he was realistic but he is willing to try some different things just to see if there might be changes. 

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Shad did such a good job yesterday at his FIRST piano lessons.  I was shocked how fast he caught on to everything.  He answered every question right, found the keys she asked for and just did super. I really liked the teacher, she is young but totally explained things in an easy to follow way. 







 
You know he has to get his grin in!

 

 
 
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PLEASE VOTE AND SHARE!!!!!!!!!
 
We are at 288 votes, I have a couple of thousand hits a day on here, if everyone could vote, I'd really appreciate it !  Today was such a long day for Selah and included us loading and uploading her three times out of her chair, into the car seat and back.  She was just exhausted.  It would have been so much easier if we had a van that we could just wheel her chair into the van and snap it into place.  Plus today it was raining so we had to get her out of the car, and into her wheelchair IN the rain.   I felt very discouraged today in that aspect!
So please vote and share! 
 
 
 



Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Selah's van link!

Here is the link as promised....

http://www.mobilityawarenessmonth.com/entrant/selah-clanton-zephyrhills-fl/


Please go and vote.  It's easy, you can vote DAILY through your email account or your FB account.  PLEASE share it too on FB, emails or blogs.  This van would make such a difference for Selah and for us.  Our nurses are all hoping and praying we win it too!  It truly would be life changing to have a van that we could wheel her into and take her wherever she needed or wanted to go.  Now it is so hard and not comfortable for her. 

Thank you so much for your help, it means a lot!!!!!!!!

Monday, March 10, 2014

More Updates

Well I took a little mini break from blogging this weekend.  But I'm back with all kinds of updates.....Everyone is doing fine here in the Clanton home.  Monday is a busy day and we've all got our new week groove on:)

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This morning I started receiving text messages and emails/PMs from friends to tell me that Evangelist Steve Hill has passed away after a decade long battle with cancer.   I'm not much into "big name " preachers....but Steve Hill was a man of God, who did not change from the man who was when he preached in Teen Challenge to the man who preached to hundreds of thousands of people.  His message never changed, it was Jesus and the Cross.  He never had a hint of scandal, he was for real.  When I heard of his death, I thought of an old church hymn we used to sing, "Heaven's Jubilee"  The chorus says "Oh what singing, oh what shouting on that happy morning when we all shall rise, Oh what glory, hallelujah when we meet our blessed Savior in the skies"  I can't imagine the welcome he got last night when he stepped into eternity.  He has led so many people to Christ and to a fuller relationship with Him.  I know he heard "well done thy good and faithful servant"   His wife and children are in many people's thoughts and prayers tonight.

some articles about Steve
http://www.charismamag.com/blogs/the-strang-report/19941-steve-hill-s-death-leaves-enormous-void-in-spirit-filled-church


here are a bunch of videos of Steve's sermons, check them out!  I loved the way that man preached.

http://www.bing.com/videos/search?q=Steve+Hill+Brownsville+Revival&FORM=VIRE2#view=detail&mid=FB5C025B49BD95D4031EFB5C025B49BD95D4031E


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DYZan5wbKds

His sermons stir my heart and make me want to draw closer to God!

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Well thanks to Denise, Selah has been entered into a contest to win a new handicapped accessible van!!!!!  Thank you so much Denise!   The voting will start tomorrow.  I will get the exact link and put it on here tomorrow morning.  You can vote daily from your email account.  Please vote for Selah, it would change her life to be able to get out easier.  Right now just going to the doctor is stressful.  She is put in her wheelchair or carried to the van and put in the second row of seats with her chair leaned back and surrounded by pillows.  The wheelchair has to be loaded into the back of the van, picked up and set down in the back, very hard.  Then when we get there, we unload the wheelchair and have to put her into it outside in whatever kind of weather.  And Repeat.....  I know the nurses will also be so glad for Selah to get a van that is easy for her to ride in.  We said if we win it, we'll put a big sticker on the back that says "La La's van"! 

the web address to the contest is www.mobilityawarnessmonth/com   you can go and look up Selah Clanton, after tomorrow I'll have a direct link to her page.   You can't see it or vote till after 3 am EST.    I'm so excited and my fingers are crossed that we are selected to win one!

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Also I wanted to share a bit more about HB 895  I shared about it in great detail in my last post.   The next step  is getting the bill on the agenda for the K-12 Subcommittee, which is Chaired by Representative Janet Adkins.  Her number is 850-717 5011, you can leave a message in support of the HB 895 also know as the  Ethan Rediske Act!

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More tomorrow:)





Friday, March 7, 2014

Pictures, News and Updates- Florida Alternative Assessment Test

 
our new patio set I love it and so does Henry!
 
 
These garden pictures are from Monday after I got all the plants done

 
 
 

 
 

 
I did an older bed in flowers, some are bug repellant but they will  all attract bees and butterflies!
 

 
 
 

 
 
 

 
 
 
 
Sam with his Ipod.  This is probably his favorite gift of all time.   We had to work with him to use the earphones, but these are child safe and won't get too loud. 
 
 
 

 
he's showing his support for Ukraine!
 
Sam is not eligible for PT anymore
since his gross motor skills are really good.
So he comes in and bothers Sarah.  He loves it, her not so much so!
 

 
see that grin!




 
Don't touch me!
 
 
 

 
go away!
 
 
 

 
MOM!  he's bothering me
 
 
 

 
 
she took herself off and came to me crying.  Then Sam left the room, and she got back up on the ball.  She is a little spoiled!  sibling  rivalry! 
 
 
Last night we met some other chaplains in Orlando at Bahama Breeze.  There is a new program for chaplains & churches in our denomination to help out more and be trained for national/local disasters.   It was very interesting.  I don't know if you could see but Jon was holding Sarah.  We took her with us and she was so good.  She loves just being with us.  I'd felt like I've been so busy, that I hadn't spent enough time with her in the last couple of days.  Sarah craves one on one Mommy time!
 
 
 
 
 
 
 ON the way to Orlando we were detoured around a terrible accident.  It was on the road that Steve would use daily if he lives at home and commutes to college.  It upset me so bad.  I called him and told him we'd find a way to afford for him to live on campus!!!!!!   Two lane roads can be so dangerous.  But we also saw an accident on the interstate going and another one coming home but not as serious.  
 
 
 
Lots of stuff going on that I've not had a chance to share about on here....
 
The first things is I've become involved in a fight for special needs students, opposing a standardized test that the state of Florida requires for special needs students.  It's called the Florida Alternative Assessment Test (alternative as opposed to the required FCAT that public school students are required to take) 
 
 
Our kids' teacher came in Monday with the paperwork to start them.  I had just read about it but didn't realize my three little one were old enough for it.  It is a ABSURB test.....I have some links if you'd like to see it or a video of it being administered.  Kids are read things and asked to explain what the author was saying......My kids are ALL non verbal and don't have reasoning skills like that!  They are shown pictures and have to chose between them.....My kids are all blind (Selah is probably somewhat blind also due to the accident)  They are asked to tell the difference between various fruits....again NON verbal....and Selah is on a gtube....so she doesn't even taste foods now. Just the most ridiculous silly absurd test you could possibly think of to measure a disabled child's progress.   From everything I've seen read of the test, my three little ones would score ZERO!
 
I feel the test is disrespectful to them and to their real strengths.  I think that is what bothers me the most.  So I called the School Board and spoke with a couple of people.  I was told it was explained in the IEP meetings.  I went back to the notes given to me BY the school board staff and read through them.  The test itself was never mentioned.  The term "access points" which I took to mean the goals of the IEP were mentioned. 
 
So yesterday I got a call back from the school system.  They had to call Tallahassee to see what to do and since we were past the 60 day window to ask for a wavier (although we didn't know anything about the test) the State said that the county school board could decide if they would allow a waiver.  They chose to waive the children for this year, for which I am grateful.  I feel we have had so many issues with the kids school services, far more than I even share on here, I couldn't imagine this!
 
In the meanwhile I had contacted reporter friends and two members of the Florida House of   Representatives .   I was thrilled with their responses.  I first talked to Linda Stewart a representative from Orange Co.  I just loved her!  She was passionate about seeing change and a very pleasant person. I told her if I lived in her section, I'd have to vote for her!!!!  She sent my contact info to Rep. Karen Castor Dentel.  Rep Dentel's office contacted me and gave me more info.  Rep Dentel is sponsoring a House Bill to change this silly law!  I will have more info soon.  Right now I'm actually at a surgical procedure place with Jon who is having an Upper GI endoscopy  (more about that later)  , so I don't have all my info with me but will share it soon. 
 
 
First let me say, I don't oppose testing BUT I do oppose testing that determines whether a child will pass a grade or graduate from high school based on a SINGLE test.   Our older boys go to private school and they have a yearly assessment test but the difference is it is a TOOL NOT something that would keep a child from going up a grade or graduating from high school if they did not get a certain score.  In my opinion, ONE test should not determine that.  It should be based on the child's overall grades. 
 
In Florida teacher's salary's are based on how well their students perform.  I do think teachers should have evaluations but again basing their pay on what a child scores?  Some children are very smart, some are not....some are going to score high no matter what.  Our son Shad without trying scores very high on everything.  I appreciate his teachers but no matter how bad of a teacher he has, (not that he has had any bad ones) he is still going to score high.  However if you were to score Sam on the same test or even one that is somewhat altered, he is always going to score low on academics, no matter how good the teacher or how much time she spends with him.
 
Some articles to help you understand more about this. 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
So I'll be doing what I can to help get this new bill passed!!!!
 
 
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Secondly, a friend of mine spoke with me about a friend he has in the publishing world.  He passed my info to her and I spoke to her briefly yesterday.   Who knows?  Many folks have encouraged me to write a book.  I've been so overwhelmed with LIFE that at times the blog seems almost like a chore.  Plus I'm so not into trying to make things happen like this so I figured if  God wants me to, it will just happen.  So maybe this is it?  I don't know.....we will see!!!!
 
So as I said I'm waiting for Jon to have this procedure.  He has a lot of issues with his throat and swallowing, he has always had this, nothing new.  He has had to have his throat stretched out several times.  It's is some odd disorder that actually used to kill people because their throats would close up and they'd starve or aspirate....YIKES!  I can't think of the name of it.  But he also has reflux, and hasn't taken his meds like he should.  I worry about some serious things that the doctor warned him about years ago.  Hoping and praying that this will just be routine and I will MAKE him take his meds!!!!
 
So what happens with Jon is food gets stuck and just won't go down or up.  He has never had it where it has obstructed his airway, but that is a possibility that scares me.  Sometimes he can feel the muscles in his throat moving, it's odd.  Mostly it's been annoying for him and the rest of the family.  I can't tell you the times I've had to wait for him in restaurants while he was in the bathroom trying to get it up or down!
 
The funniest was at my 10th year class reunion, people still were kinda who they were back in high school and we all cared what others thought back then (not at all like my 30th class reunion!!!!)  Anyhow Jon got choked on a piece of steak and was puking or trying to puke it up in the bathroom.  He said he was sure the other guys thought that the preacher had had too much to drink LOL!   We had to leave early and were on our way to the local ER when he finally got it up!  
 
So I'm all caught up, loving the joys of real Wifi!  Not like ours out in the country!!!!!  This is the LIFE:)
 
 
 


Wednesday, March 5, 2014

My Visit to the Psychiatrist!


Today was my appointment with the psychiatrist.  To be quite honest, I have looked forward to it since I made the appointment about 6 weeks or more ago!  I had no idea what to expect so I was a bit nervous. 

I found the building but the floor the office was on had mismatched doors.  His office was 207, which you'd THINK would come after 206 right???   Not so, it was like 202, 205, 201, 203.....AND NO 207!  It was around the elevator, RIGHT in front of a open area where you could look down to the 1st floor OR jump down if you were so inclined.  So I was cracking up wondering if it was all some set-up to test new patients LOL  

When I got to the right office and checked in, I thought it would be like "What About Bob?"  (one of my favorite movies of all times)  I thought there would be a waiting room for the next patient and a area for the last patient to go out of so there was no contact.  Well.....it wasn't quite like that.  I was sitting and waiting to be called when a clearly distressed woman came in.  She went to sign in and loudly said "D*#@ I forgot my name!" She was quite serious and the receptionist told her her name and she signed in.  Then she somehow ended up inside the receptionist's office on her cell having an extremely loud fight with someone on the phone.  It was interesting to say the least.....  Then another woman came in and she looked very depressed and refused to have her vitals taken. It was evident that there were some serious cases in there!

So the doctor came out to get me.  We began talking and he asked me why I had come to see him.  I told him I was concerned about my lack of focus, forgetfulness, and inability to get things done (I feel the anxiety has already been helped tremendously by the low dose med I was given.)  Then  I shared just the bare bones about the last two years of my life.  He asked some questions and gave me a test.  I told him there were times I was actually worried about early onset Alzheimer's.

After talking and doing the test, he diagnosed me with ADD Attention Deficient Disorder brought on by stress.  He said he had seen very few cases (I think he said only 2 other cases) where he had diagnosed an adult who had never had an issue with ADD as a child or teen with it.  He ruled out Alzheimer's and PTSD too.  He said I didn't seem to have any depression either:) 

He based his diagnosis on the feedback I gave him.  I never had issues with school and I carried a LARGE (over 100 cases) caseload as a probation officer and as a supervisor, I supervised about 10 Probation officers who all had about 100 cases each and I had no issues with that, in fact I thrived on it.  Since I've been a stay at home mom, I've handled all of Sam's paperwork, medical stuff and all our family's paperwork/bills whatever.   I did all the paperwork for both of our adoptions, and did it very fast with no issues.  IN fact with the girls', their paperwork which was much more involved, I got done in two nights...and was done!  When we got home, with our girls, I was so organized with everything from cooking 3 meals a day from scratch to organizing their playtimes and all the medical/therapy appointments.  THEN the accident happened and I could not  do anything, I felt paralyzed.  Everything became a half done chore.....I felt like my mind/will had betrayed me.

Over the past year, I've taught myself some coping skills when it comes to getting things done.  I have a work table and I keep a notebook and calendar with me all the time.  I write down everything to help me remember.  I even write in the steps...for example....

Do yearly well check for the church  (the church has well water and has to be checked yearly)
-pick up and pay for form and sample cup
-do sample
-fill out form
-drop off

Then I mark off each thing I do.  it helps me to see what I have left.  Otherwise I forget....

Also I've decided to take away some of my responsibilities.  Thankfully we've had quite a few people step up in our church to clean it and help with the yard work too.  I'm very grateful!  I used to do it all!!!   I have hired a someone to do the deep cleaning in my house monthly.   I'm giving over all (I hope) of my secretarial duties at the churches to someone else.  Next year my little ones are going to go to school (private Christian with a good friend as their teacher with the McKay scholarship-they will still get services from the public school system)   It sounds like I'm just going to go on a vacation but I realized I needed some breaks......there were things that were just overwhelming my mind.   The psychiatrist thought the things I was doing would help me to be more focused on the important things and help with the stress level. 

So I'm very pleased with the appointment and the diagnosis which I would have never guessed!  The doctor was quite cheerful and we laughed a bit.  It was not a "down" visit nor did I need any Kleenex!  He prescribe a med to help me concentrate....one of the side affects is weight LOSS!   I was about ready to kiss him-giving me a pill to help me AND I can lose weight at the same time.....WOOHOO!   To celebrate, I stopped and got some fried chicken from Popeye's LOL...really I did, since I'm going to lose weight anyhow.......

A close friend encouraged me to go and see a psychiatrist.  I'm so very thankful she did!!!  It was not at all like my preconceived idea either!  And there was NO couch LOL, I had even debated about what to wear in case I had to lie down on a couch....I went with Capri jeans instead of a skort.  I didn't have to worry:)  SO if you are struggling with any mental health issue, go get help!  Don't be ashamed, or let some type of silly spiritual guilt hold you back.  A psychiatrist is someone who can diagnosis you with "what ails you" and can prescribe you meds.  We go to a large medical group, so he had all my medical history in front of him on the computer and he was able to see that I had no medical issues that would prohibit me taking the med he prescribe.  If you have that kind of medical group, that would make it the easiest for you too.  A psychologist is one who is more a counselor and one you go more in to details about your life.  I'm not really sure I want to go to one of those.  I really don't want to go back to anything and talk about it in too much detail.   In my experience, that has not been helpful for me personally, that's just not how I roll.....I tend to go through stuff, deal with it and move on.  I don't think revisiting things help too much.   Now for someone else it might be the key that helps them.  Me, I just want to move on.  I feel like now with help, I will be able to move on.....I sure hope so!  

So once again, I'm being very open, honest and vulnerable....I'm doing this to help others who face these kind of challenges.  And this is also just a part of my life, I write and share my life.  And now for some light humor


 
 
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that has been me:)  Hopefully this new med will help me to focus which will improve my memory. 
 
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A wonderful lady who reads my blog, has enrolled Selah in a chance to win a handicapped accessible mini van.  All the details will be coming and you can vote on line and go in one of the company's stores if there is one near you (if you go, it's like voting 10 times!)  I'll be sharing with you all the details when they give the code & website to go to.  I'm really thankful for Denise taking the time out of her busy schedule to find out all this info for me and do the recommendation.   It would be life changing for us to have a van that was accessible for Selah.  I try to be content with everything in my life and trust that God will help us have the things we need to take care of all the kids, especially Selah.  But transporting her is very hard.  It takes two people to do it, at this point, I'd never be able to take her somewhere by myself.  I'm just hoping that we will win this van!!!!