Syrian refugees.....

Yeah today I got to have lunch with one of my BFFs!  The past three weeks of HBOT made it impossible to do see any friends:)  It was good to talk and laugh for 2 hours:)

Everyone is doing good.  No real changes in Selah.  Please keep praying! 





Tonight I felt to share this need with you.......

This is a crazy world we live in....I have no idea where I stand on some issues in the Middle East, I have to fight bad feelings in my heart at times towards nations who would love to destroy our way of life but I have to remember that God loves them JUST as much as He loves me.  Knowing that fact, I received a request from a friend I have known for many years.  He has lived in the Arab World for 20 years where he  faithfully leads a ministry in the Middle East that is directly involved in hands on ministry with those who are suffering and need to experience the love of Jesus.  He, his family and ministry are the REAL deal and they are accountable to others.  I whole heartily endorse this ministry and promise you the funds will be used to meet the needs.  Please read the request below and respond if you can. 


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As you know, there are over one million Syrian refugees living in the countries that surround Syria. Over 600,000 of those are in Jordan. About half of these people live in UN refugees camps, but many of them have chosen to live outside of the camps (as the camps are not very family-friendly). Our teams and national churches are actively involved in ministry to these suffering people.
It costs us about $50 a month to feed one of these refugees. Would you consider helping us with this incredible need and ministry opportunity? Our teams are meeting both physical and spiritual needs on the ground, but we need your help to keep this ministry running. If you are willing to help, please clink on the link below to give online.
Thank you for praying about helping us with this need!!

https://giving.ag.org/Give/Details/4e5359b3-2e18-4dc3-8b99-e73b3a9bfa8a


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Thank you for reading & thinking how you can help meet this need.  These are real people who are caught up in something they can not control.  It would be an awful thing to be in their situation.   

 

Catch UP

I don't have a title for the blog today....I guess Catch Up is good:)  So weird not to have HBOT after 20 intensive days of it!  Selah had PT and OT today, as did the other two little ones....

Guess who learned to drink from a straw today.....SARAH!!!!!!

 

And yes we went to the beauty shop today too!  Mama will NEVER try and cut her bangs again LOL! 

 

Drinking from a straw is HUGE.   What happened is when we got home from Ukraine, Sarah quit drinking from a cup.  She didn't do it very good to begin with.  I spoon fed her all her drinks.  All her food is pureed so she got lots of liquids.  Our therapists didn't like that I didn't push her to drink from a cup and it was hard BUT I really felt, despite the inconvenience of it, that it was bonding for us.   So I've done it and tried to work with her with a cup too.  BUT now with the straw....life maybe changing:) 

 

I do think she needed the bonding.  I always hold her in my lap when I spoon fed her the drinks.  I also feed her in my lap most of the time at home too instead of in the high chair.  I think it makes up some for how she was treated in the orphanages she was in.  I saw how food was shoved down her throat and it just killed me.  She used to gag after about 3 spoonfuls of anything.  There is NOTHING wrong with her mouth or throat, yet she can not chew.  I blend everything for her.  It would be so much easier for me if she'd just eat food...but I'm not pushing her, just letting her go at her own rate.  She'll get there, she loves food and gets HAPPY when it is time to eat!  Tonight I had cooked chicken and veggies in the crock pot all day and I just blended that for her in my MAGIC BULLET  (Lord knows I had no idea how much that Magic Bullet would get used when I bought it!) and she ate 3 containers of it! 

 

So today was a lot of running around for me.  First I took the van to the dealership to get the oil changed and the back up camera fixed.  They dropped me off at the mall (and I had NO kids with me  WOOHOO)  I got my hair cut and bought a few things cuz it is going to be my bday this week!  I bought a dress and two pairs of dressy flip flops (flip flops can be dressy....and we live in Florida, I have quite the collection)  And everything was on CLEARANCE!!!  The only way to buy:)

 

 

 

 

 

 

I went to the bookstore and found TWO AGATHA CHRISTIE books that I don't have.  I thought I had everyone of her books but I found one I've never read and one I read but don't have!  I was so excited!   Agatha Christie is probably my overall favorite author.  I love Miss Marple and Hercules Poirot!   

 

 

 

 

I also got a hair cut and my nails done since I haven't been able to go do anything like that during therapy.  So I have had my birthday celebration all by myself today and it was great:)

 

 

Then I picked up Shad from school, got pizza, went home, we all ate, then took the kids to enroll Steve in Driver's Ed, then got Steve and poor Sarah's hair cut! 

 

 

 

she looks better although she did not like me trying to take a picture when she was ready for supper LOL

 

 

this is about as mad of a face as she does:)  Love my little Sarah JOY!

 

So today we got a lot of little things done that we couldn't' take the time for the last three weeks.  It was fun but I am tired!

 

 Our nurse feels like Selah was moving around more today.  I was in and out so much, maybe she was wondering where I was and why weren't we in the car LOL.  She is still having issues with constipation.... she doesn't seem uncomfortable but it's not good for her!  Please pray that she can go poo easily and that her little mind heals.   Can you also add three friends to your prayer list?  Matthew (brain tumor)  a young man around Steve's age that I've known his parents for years, known Matt since he was a baby....worked with his mom.

Angie (brain tumor) friends for years, she has some adopted children and is a strong advocate for orphans.  She met us at the airport when we got home form Ukraine with the girls.

Sheri (stage 4 ovarian cancer) we went to college together and she has such a sweet spirit. 

 

When I wake up during the night, I pray for each of these, during the day they come to my mind.  All three are real life friends, all three have not been given much hope at all medically....all three serve and love God.  They all have been faithful to God.....Matt even as a young man has a strong faith....

 

I don't know WHY God doesn't heal instantly every Christian...Not even going to go there...but I know the bible says "the fervent prayers of a righteous man availith much"  I might not be the most righteous one around, but I try....and I'm calling out to God for my friends....Please pray with me for them! 

 

 

 

 

Day 20 and we're done:) Boost Party and new members!

Yesterday was a crazy day!!!!   The boys and I worked outside in the morning and Jon took Selah to her HBOT.  I went with her in the afternoon for her last treatment.  Now we wait and see what happens in the next 3-6 weeks.....we are praying for some changes to take place! 

Thank you for all your prayers, all the fasting that was done....  I did good for about 10 days, then I did ok....it was hard to fast.  But I'm glad we made the effort and I think you for everything that was done for Selah's sake.  We really appreciate it.

 

She was into her Baby Praise DVD

 

 

Then we rushed home so we could go to a party:)  My friend Krystal has partnered with her church St Paul's Lutheran in Lakeland to do a monthly get together for families of special needs kids. It's part of the LIFT ministry and they call the monthly meetings BOOST.   Honestly I had forgotten all about it.  I knew about and had planned on going but I've been busy.  She texted me to tell me about it and we rushed around to get us all ready!  Jon was doing visitation and I was doing the HBOT...it was crazy but we made it:)

 

I'm a funny person.  I have lots of friends and enjoy people BUT I don't' do "groups"  .  When we lost the twins we went to a group for families with losses...ONCE and I swore I'd never do anything like that again.  I don't care for women's ministry, pastor wife retreats...  Don't even ask me to go to a "marriage retreat"  OH MY GOSH  a friend went to one, and they had assignments and one was to go and have sex and then come back to the class...and I guess to "share"....   Ok that would NEVER EVER happen with me.   Not in this life time or any other one LOL!   This was a Christian marriage retreat.  I'm not comfortable when some married Christian folks on FB say things to each other that is sexual....really I am NOT at all interested in that.... and it dose not make me think you have a good marriage, it makes me think you have some issues writing stuff to each other so others can see!!!!!  

 

I was thinking about all of this last night trying to "figure" myself out...

 

What I "figured" is I don't like to be a part of anything where I am expected to act a certain way or have a certain type of experience or have a certain emotion.   I was contacted by several people in the "near drowning" community after the accident and invited to join a group on FB...I declined.  I really don't want to hear everyone else's grief.  I have enough on my own.  I felt the same way after we lost the twins...I didn't want to go back to that group, I had my own grief to deal with, I didn't' want their grief too!  And I am beyond tired of "Christian" meetings where you are expected to have some big emotional experience.....don't even get me started with that one...LOL

 

So I was really only going for my friend's sake.  This was her first group and I wanted to support her.  BUT we had a blast!  We met some great people.  No one shared any negative emotions....we weren't expected to have some big "spiritual " experience...we just went and had a great time as a family.  We danced, played games ate lots of food....we felt accepted by the group and by the volunteers...it was truly awesome!

 

St Paul Lutheran Church in Lakeland Fl is a church that is interested in reaching out to the community NOT to gain new church members...but just to be a place where families can come and feel accepted.  We met the pastor of this large church last night.  I would have never known he was the pastor (and I mean that as such a compliment!!)  , dressed in shorts, working, serving he didn't' have to say any prayers or do anything....  I hate to say it but I've met plenty of "servant leaders" who were NOT servant leaders...they were so busy trying to make sure everyone knew they were doing a little something  BUT they were still the pastor and still in control......  I was so impressed by this guy last night.  I was so impressed by the volunteers from the church too.  They made us feel welcomed without feeling weird.  So if you live in the Lakeland area, I can recommend SPL as a great loving accepting church for everything I've seen of it. 

 

We ate, then we danced.  As you see I had quite the partner.  Sam would have danced all night with me:) 

 

 

Lots of good (bad for you food-which made it good LOL) 

 

 

 

Now it's time to dance and dance we did!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

my bud!

 

 

 

I love this boy:)

 

 

twirling

 

 

 

 

then Sam got tired and we danced like this.  He is too big for me to hold him for long:)

 

 

 

then Jon brought Sarah out, she loved it too.

 

 

Look at that hair going!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Daddy had to take over and twirl Sam for awhile, I thought my arm was going to fall off:)

 

 

 

 

If you could just see the joy on Sam.  We danced for about 7 songs, sat for a while and then got back up.  It was a sock hop and we loved all the old music. 

 

 

Shad loved playing Twister! 

 

After all that dancing Sam was thirsty

 

Crystal and me:)  Friends since college

 

Steve and Sarah 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

As you can see we had such a good time.  BTW, do you see Sarah's hair....bangs...that was me!  I thought I'd "trim" them before we left....BAD IDEA!  I will be getting her hair fixed as best as we can on Monday.  Reminder to self NEVER think you can trim hair!!!!  Poor girl!

 

 

 

we finished the night, sitting around singing some sweet chorus, listening to the kids sing ( I don't have a picture of all the singers and the worship leader who was just wonderful and so sweet spirited.

 

What a great night!!! 

And if you have a family member with special needs, you all can come and be a part of it every 2nd Saturday of each month at St Paul Lutheran Church in Lakeland Fl.  Next month the theme will be Halloween and costume dress up.  Shad is really excited about that!  Sam just wants ot make sure there is food and dancing LOL!

 

 

 

We drove home in a monsoon with the most beautiful lighting.  Nothing like a great Florida thunderstorm!    But that meant our internet was out....so I went to bed early.  Got up this Sunday morning, mopped the church, and did the typing for the worship section.  We had some new songs, one that I love but can't remember the name of it.. 

 

And we welcomed new members in to our church today!!!

 

 

 

Muff and Muffet (their biker names) have a ministry to bikers.   They are a joy to have in our church and an encouragement to us!   They are a part of CMA Christian Motorcycle Association .  They reach out to bikers (and others) all across the southeast. 

 

Our church has been growing with people coming in that have the same heart as we do.  This is something we prayed and hoped for, for a looooonnnnnggggg  time LOL!   It's been such a blessing. 

 

Day 19 HBOT Yard work

I got started this morning by a 2mile walk with Steve but he had to show off so he ran it and then sat and waited for me!  Teens! 

Yesterday we did some yard work, today we did more.  I hurt all over!  We moved all the play equipment to the front of our yard.  We had put it in the back, last summer with the plan to move it when fall came. ......but of course, we weren't here.   It's not cool weather yet but it is coming.  I had to clean everything with Clorox because it had gotten green since last year.  We used it some since we've been home but not much.  Now that Sarah can walk with her walker, it's great to have it more accessible to her.  We are looking forward to some cool nights (cool to me means low 70's- its' all relative LOL)  Today I did take her out for awhile.  She craves swinging, it's called vestibular movement.  Most kids who are blind crave it.  "Children who have hypo-responsive, or low registration of movement, will seek out movement every chance they get. These are the children who are always moving, spinning, fidgeting, and hanging upside down. "  That is Sarah and Sam also.  I'm going to have to buy a bigger swing for them.  Thankfully there are swings made for kids like them who don't have enough balance to sit in a regular swing.  But they are expensive!  We've been able to get by with the toddler swings but Sam's cracked....LOL  he is just about too big.  We do work with him to use a regular swing, but he is a bit unsteady still. 

 

Everything is nice and clean. 

 

I love the elephant ears.  This year they grew wider than ever

 

 

 

 

my little corner

 

 

So looking forward to being able to be outside more.  I LOVE Florida but I can't bring my little ones out is the heat like it's been. 

 

We've worked everywhere on the yards.  Really got encouraged by a guy in our church who came and did some extra things on the yard.  Now we wanted to do all the other little pieces.  Between our yard and the church, it's about 4 acres with a grave yard.  I even cleaned grave stones this week:)  Someone once asked me if it was spooky to have a grave yard next door.  I'm such a odd person, I like it.  It's comforting to me .....  We kid around all the time about being buried there but someone told us that the county has stopped burials in smaller cemeteries.  I don't know.  The pastor who started our church is buried there and his was one of the tombstones I cleaned this weekend.  I feel it is a show of respect to care for graves. 

 

 

Selah is the same, still we are praying for some changes.  She actually got upset today after HBOT and had to have some Valium:(  Maybe it is a sign she is more aware....  I don't' know...  It seems she has a day of new things and then nothing for a few days.  Last night she was lifting her head up a lot.   But she has had some real issues with not pooping:(  She has had to have suppositories and her feeds have fiber in it.  We also give her prune juice.  Please pray she can get back on track with her pooping!   I think last night she may have been uncomfortable. 

 

Tomorrow is our last day of HBOT.....then we wait and see what the next 3 weeks will bring.  That is the time frame that we have been told that the most changes take place.  Thanks for your prayers!!!

 

 

 

Please do not forget our orphan ministry!   Remember we are raising money for blind twin girls in India that my friend and her hubby are adopting!  Shad's and my birthday is coming up next Wednesday and we'd LOVE to get checks we could send on to this family!!!   If you want to give send a check to Grace Church 7060 Berry Road Zephyrhills Fl 33540  marked ORPHAN FUND!  We have only raised $200 for this sweet family.  I'd love to see us hit at least $600!!!!!!! 

 

So if you love Shad, send a birthday wish for him by helping these girls!  And if you love or like me...do the same:)  It doesn't have to be large, if it's only $5, that helps them!  I remember how it was when we were raising money for our girls. 

 

Remember Amanda and Chet have already adopted two girls who are blind.  Amanda is trained to work with blind kids and that is where their hearts are!  That amazes me.....they didn't have a child with a vision issue like we did, to start them on this path...they totally chose it!   So let's help them out!!!!!!

 

 

Day 18 HBOT More issues with the Pasco Co School System

Nothing new to report, we are down to just 2 days, 4 more sessions to go.....still praying to see some big changes.  We were told that many children have changes within the 3 weeks following their last treatment.  Please pray with us that we see more changes then.

She was busy today as she had HBOT, Physical Therapy and then HBOT !!  I can't help but think every little bit of stimulation is doing something to her brain.  She was up in her stander for almost an hour also.  I think Selah will sleep good tonight.

I had an unusual call today.  A  social worker calling from the Pasco Co School System to set up an appointment for Sarah.  That was great but when I asked about Selah, I was given the answer that the social worker had not been given Selah's case....  Selah was also not given an evaluation when the  psychologist came last school year from the school board.  He did one with Sarah, but only went in to see Selah.   He didn't ask any questions or do any paperwork.

I have a feeling that you will be reading on this blog about another fight I will have to get into for my kids.  I think they are going to try and tell me that they will not provide services for Selah in our home.....  all I can say is "God help them"  LOL   I've been too nice in the past with the school system but now I'm tired of nonsense and their lack of effort to provide anything for my little ones. 

Today I told the social worker she could tell her supervisor that I expect services for Selah and I expect things to get started in a timely manner. 

It just makes me soooo mad that the Pasco Co School System has always fought me tooth and nail to get any type of services for Sam.  Personally I know there are good teachers in the public school system and probably some good administration..... but we have had such a negative experience in the public school system.   I just can not believe how awful it has been with the exception of one teacher. 

You know when you have conflicts in your life, you should look and see WHY there is always a problem.....well...since I have 2 other kids in the private school system and have NEVER had any issue whatsoever... it makes me think the problem doesn't lay with ME!   I think the public schools need to understand something that private schools understand....teaching is a team effort and the parents PAY the bill whether they actually hand over the check in the private school setting or whether they pay through their taxes to the public school system.  In private schools (at least the two my kids have gone to) the parents were a huge part of things.  Everything was ran orderly and everyone knew what to expect.  Teachers and administration had a "can do" attitude.   I've never felt like anyone was "against"  me or my child.  However in the public school system, that is exactly how I feel. 

Why should I even have to wonder if the school will provide services for Selah?  I do believe it is against the LAW, FEDERAL LAW for them NOT to do so....   I'm sure there will be some little loophole they THINK they can use.....so if any of them are reading my blog....just be aware, I am not going to allow something like that to be done to my child. 

Yes I understand Selah will not go to college and may never go past where she is right now but in America every child has a right to an education. 

Once this last week of HBOT is done, I have nothing to do but get started on this situation with the school system.  Going to dust off my IEP book, make a few phone calls and get going on this next week.....  I absolutely will have no hesitation to call the media about this situation and to publically blog about it nightly....  Believe me, I will keep all of you informed on this situation.  We are in week 4 of the school year and until I contacted the school board last week, there had been no contact from them ALTHOUGH I had turned in the three little ones registration LAST SCHOOL YEAR!  

I'm sure you'd think that a school system would do everything they could to make getting services for these three little ones a priority .......   especially since they (the school system) withdrew our son without permission last year making me have to do much more paperwork to get him back in.....and since we turned in a huge folder of paperwork to them last year...you'd think all three children would at least be in their computer system  (no only one was)   and since we'd had so many bad experiences with a particular teacher and had shown the Pasco Co School system GRACE in not bringing a lawsuit against them for our son being led around a school with a rope tied around his waist like a dog....a school that has floor to ceiling windows so all the children could see it happen.......  You would think they would be helpful and work with us....You and I both would think that....but that is not what I'm seeing......  So......that's what I'm thinking about tonight.....

Day 17 HBOT- Many thoughts....

This morning I got up early and went walking, got my 2 miles in at our hospital's cardiac walk.  For years I walked 3-5 miles a day.  Then after we got home from our adoption, life was more complicated, then the accident....and my bestest walking buddy went back to work:(  So now I walk alone, although tomorrow Steve is going with me...hopefully.  One good thing is I had all my work done by noon:)

Today being 9/11 brings back so many memories....I'm sure you can remember where you were on that day...

Jon and I lived in NYC for a few years in the 90's so we have a special love for NYC.  What a sad day....  My memory was I remember I was doing client interviews at the detention center in Bartow and one of the officers told me a small plane had flown into the Twin towers. Having lived in NY for years, I have a special love for it. As I got in my car I called Jon who had not left for work yet. He turned on the tv....as the second plane flew into the other building... I got back to my office and told everyone, we turned on the tv in the "lunch room" We only had it on for a few minutes when the first tower fell. I remember praying for the people I knew were dying as we helplessly watched...then the other tower went down....the pentagon...Flight 92 in Penn.....what a sad day. Even though I had just become a supervisor, I told my boss I was "out of there!" all I could think of my Steve who was in kindergarten! I went and got him out of school and took him home, planted him down with a Scooby Doo DVd and watched tv coverage for hours.  We went to church that night and prayed....

So 12 years later, the war on terrorism  still goes on.  America is now possibility at the beginning of another war, this time with Syria.  If you wonder where I stand, so do I!  A part of me says go blow them up, another part of me says it will do no good....   I do wish we had a strong president and not such a weak one for this moment in time.  Since WWII it seems that America has not wanted to go in and WIN a war.  I regret the loss of any human life but I am very thankful that we bombed and fought across Europe to win against Hitler and I am not ashamed to say I am thankful that we dropped the atomic bombs on Japan and ended the war on that front also.  Since then it seems we do not want to fight HARD like that.  In Korea, Vietnam, Iraq, Afghanistan... we've gone in gently and not taken care of business, they've been "restrained wars" ....  I'm sure we'd do the same in Syria, since the John Kerry said it would be "an unbelievable small attack"...that is unbelievable that it was said....  sometimes it is better to just "take care of business" and then be done with it. 

So that's my foreign policy...aren't you glad I'm not Prez!
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Now the whole "rehoming" "adoption disruption"

Whew, what a can of worms!  In the adoption world, you hear little things here and there.  I was once approached by someone who wanted us to go to another country and adopt a child for them.  They had too many children to be approved for this particular country...  I said "NO"   I would never do something like that.  Now that is not even the same as rehoming or disruption but the lady suggested we  do it like that.  Too weird for me! 


Now I admit sometimes adoption is hard.  When we adopted Shad we expected a child like Sam.  Shad was said to be blind and mentally delayed...he was NOT!  He was blind in one eye and a 2 year old genius.  He was very strong willed.  He did seem glad to be with me and seemed to bond pretty good but he was so different than the child we were expecting.  He was a totally normal 2 yr old.   There were days when I wondered if we'd made a mistake adopting him in the first few months.  We loved him and enjoyed him, but he was a handful.  He would have temper tantrums where he'd throw himself on the floor, any floor and bang his head and yell.   If you know me.....I don't do temper tantrums.....  Steve and Sam were easy going kids, I'd never even seen a real temper tantrum like that....  Let's just say within 3 months those temper tantrums were gone.  It took a lot of work, a lot of consistency and love.  It was not easy but we worked through it.  I can understand how someone can feel like they can't handle a child.  I certainty had some thoughts along those lines myself!!!  BUT a child is not a dog you can return to the animal shelter because they pee'd on you couch!  

So disruption of an adoption means at some point before or after the adoption takes place, the family backs out.  Sometimes it takes place early on, some parents meet the child (international) and realize they can not adopt the child for various reasons.  In China you have 24 hours with the child before everything is finalized.  In Ukraine, you have to make a decision when you first meet the child about whether you want to go to court for the child.  I think I've heard of families backing out even after court, one family even after the child was out of the orphanage and with them:(   With an American adoption, usually through foster care, you have a longer window of time to back out legally.

I've heard about families who disrupted their adoption right after coming home.   I've not known anyone personally, and I don't think it happens much but you do hear things hear and there in the adoption community. 

This is another thing I'm conflicted about.....I think alot of it is foolishness!   Perhaps the family got caught up in the idea of "save the orphan" and I also think society is such a throw away society, that just like people get divorced for silly reasons and lack of commitment, people are also not committed to their children.  That makes me mad!

On the other hand, if a family doesn't bond to their adopted child, maybe the child is better off in another home! 

So I guess I'm not opposed to adoption disruptions but they should be governed and done LEGALLY with background checks etc.... 

The "rehoming" smacks of things happening under the table in my opinion.   That is dangerous to children!!! 

I do not know of anyone personally that has been involved with anything like this.  I do know it can be done legally, and have a social worker, lawyer and the court involved.  If something like this needs to happen, that should be how it is done.  There should be laws in place to protect children from any harm. 

So for the record, we understood with Shad that he was learning/adjusting to living in a family.  We talked with our social worker and our agency and got some great tips.  We worked through the worst of things within three months.  We adore Shad and he loves us.  We laugh about those days now and he thinks it is funny!

With Sarah and Selah, it was a dream, so easy, they just fit in like they should have been with us always.  I do think the 6 weeks we spent in Ukraine visiting them almost every day made thing easier for them and us.  We had over a month to get to know each other.  That was hard, it was inconvenient but I think it was really much better for the whole bonding time than China was.   With China I walked in, was handed Shad and was out the door in an hour with a new child....YIKES!   With the girls, we earned their trust.  When we left with them, even tho we got on a train and did an all night ride...it was easy, no crying, no screaming.  They knew us and we knew them.  They at least liked us and we LOVED them!  I could just cry thinking of the sweetness of that day....  Just wish I could go back to that day...

With Selah and Sarah, we were prepared and really didn't have any issues once we were home.  When we first met Selah, some of her odd behaviors worried us but she worked out of them, so quickly.  They were just institutional behaviors.  But once she began trusting us, we saw a change even before she left the institution. 


But what if a family has problems?  First I'd say contact your social worker and agency!  Try and get some pointers, take the child to your pediatrician and see if you can get referrals to counseling.  Do EVERYTHING you can not to hurt the child emotionally.  That child has been through so much.  Don't add more rejection to their lives!!!  And PRAY that God will help you.  Do everything legally if you do have to disrupt but do everything in your power NOT to do that!!!   I don't like that anything like this ever happens...it is very sad!  I have not seen the reports on NBC but I have seen them on the internet.  Some in the adoption world feel like NBC is just trying to make a sensational story...I feel like if it is happening and there is proof, then put it out there for others to know and hopefully it will protect some child! 

So those are my deep thoughts for today....sorry!  I got up too early this morning and have been rolling all day. 

Please keep praying for our sweet Selah, who is as much mine as any biological child could ever be.... I hope she always knows how loved and cherished she is!  All five of my kids are the absolutely BEST thing that ever happened to me!  I feel that so deeply in my heart.  They've blessed and enriched my life, so I've cried some tears and walked through some valleys with them and for them but that just makes them that much dearer and sweeter to my heart.