Thursday, July 21, 2016

Healing-Have you ever had one?

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So what's on my mind?   HEALING! 

First I want to say I'm not trying to put doubt into anyone's mind or cause conflict but unlike most folks I'm not one to just close my eyes and say nothing.

My husband is a pastor in a denomination that teaches Divine Healing.  I've been raised from a baby on in churches that teach that, the college I went to taught that......but I ask where are the healings?

Obviously we have prayed for our children over and over and over again.....throughout the years  and it is personal struggle with us.  However as a pastor's wife, even if our kids didn't have their challenges I'd still question because we see so much more suffering.

Currently we have a wonderful woman in our church who is close to death from cancer.  It just tears me up to see people and their families walk through this.  I don't question God as much as I question the teachings I've been taught all these years.  I know God is a good God-He is so faithful especially in our worst times. 

I'm now in my 50's- all my life I've heard of how God can and does heal.  But I am not sure - I've rarely seen a true healing. 

What I classify as a TRUE HEALING is a healing that is not one that comes by the hand of a doctor or medicine or surgery.  While we are incredibly grateful to God and our doctors- to me that doesn't constitute a miracle.  I remember after Sam's eye surgery a woman said to me "You got your miracle"  I was nice but inside I thought "if 44 eye drops a day, monthly doctor trips and all the work I have to do is a miracle we are missing something!"  Now I am so grateful for our Dr A and I truly believe God gave him the wisdom to do such amazing surgery to give sight to blind children.....that's a different level than a healing miracle. 

I also want to clarify this I'm also NOT  talking about  a person just getting better faster than normal.....One time I was talking to a man & he said God healed his broken leg.  Being curious I asked for details and he told me that he got the cast off in 5 weeks rather than the 6 weeks the doctors had originally told him......  Another friend told me God healed her of an ovarian cyst.  Well I've had ovarian cysts off and on for years.  As their nature they come and go and they can be worrisome.  I had a huge one while I was pregnant with Sam & was so relieved when it dissipated after months.  I firmly believe God made our bodies in a way that they can heal themselves for lack of a better term. 

I'm also not a believer in a "progressive healing'  When Jesus healed someone- they were healed...

I had one real Jesus type healing.  After Steve's birth-I had a lot of scar tissue.  It was a traumatic birth to say the least.....  My doctor wanted to do surgery on the scar tissue and I just couldn't dare think of doing that!  It was painful enough!!!!    Well I went to a Good Friday service and the minister said before a prayer to 'ask God to heal you right in your seat if you need healing"   Me being the sarcastic person thought " haha that is exactly where I need it"   Later that day, I sat on the floor with Steve to play with him and didn't feel any all..... I went and checked and the scar tissue was wasn't in my clothes or anywhere to be found.  I will say my doctor and her assistant were absolutely amazed.  I can't say it was a medically documented healing and I have no paperwork but my doctor could hardly believe it! 

I have a missionary friend who had kidney cancer and was treated by surgery and chemo.  A few years later the doctor found a large spot on a lung.  My friend had a travel commitment and went ahead and went and while there he was prayed for.  When he came back the spot was imaged as a hole ( as if something had been cut out) and since that time new healthy tissue has grown back.  I've not seen medical proof but I do believe his story. 

So those are the two healings I'm sure of.  My question is why are there so very few?  Some people say it's because we are in America and not desperate enough for God- they'd say there are miracles in other countries but I don't buy that at all. First people are desperate for God's healing touch in America, believe me I've been told too many times there was no hope for change in our situations and if you don't think a mom with a little girl in a coma (now for almost 4 years) is desperate, you are absolutely crazy!  Secondly this may sound mean...but I've seen people caught up in a revival/healing type meeting who have proclaimed that they were healed of various things but actually they were just wanting to be healed,.   My husband tries very hard not to e3ncourage things like that but once we had a woman say she was healed of deafness but she wasn't......she was just excited.  Unfortunately many ministers are not that careful and they proclaim that someone is healed while they actually are not. 

So my question to you is do have proof of a physical miracle???  I'm interested.  Please send it to me at and let me know if I can publically share it. 

Again I'm not sharing this to have some big theological fight- this is something that is a HUGE deal to me both in our family and as a pastor's wife.  Also TRUTH is very very important to me.  There are times I am very uncomfortable with things people in the Pentecostal movement say.  Our doctrine on healing is based off of the scripture in Isaiah 53:4-5 (the scripture is a prophecy of Jesus the Messiah)
Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.
But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.

Many theologians believe that last portion of the scripture "by His stripes we are healed" means only a spiritual healing while most Pentecostals believe it is a physical healing.   (if you are wondering I believe it means a spiritual healing)  I do believe the New Testaments talks of "gifts of healing' but I do not believe that physical healing is on the same par as salvation.  What I'm saying is I do not believe healing is provided for in the atonement.  That's pretty much is a statement on the same level as blasphemy in the Pentecostal world!  (And I'm speaking ONLY for myself on this blog)

It seems like to me we so often parrot things without really understanding scripture and we make scripture say what we would like it to say....... I'm not going to do that.  I'd love for God to just do everything I want Him to do but the scriptures don't support that belief. 


  1. When it comes to the issue of believing in healing, I've always wavered back and forth. As soon as my husband's biopsy report came in, (by then I had become a mini-pro on each type of cancer and the chances of recovery), and the doctor said "small cell", I knew it was terminal. They could "treat it", but they explained that it would just extend his life a bit. (And the effects of that 'extension', which he jumped at ~ chemo, radiation, etc. were absolutely horrible. He was in the ICU at Moffit constantly because of the terrible side effects.)
    Anyway, I DID pray for him to be healed, but in all honesty, I had my doubts that it was going to occur. He on the other hand, never accepted that he wouldn't be healed. He just knew it would happen. He had so much faith.( I didn't ever voice my opinion/doubts, because who was I to do that?)
    I think sometimes it's just "life". We live here on earth, in our pretty frail human bodies, which sometimes get bad diseases that can't be 'fixed'.....
    One thing I have trouble with though, is the fact that children suffer and aren't healed. Some so tiny and young, that they've never even had a chance to sin, not in thought or deed. They're totally innocent. This I don't understand and frankly, I'm not comfortable with at all. I've had long, one-sided conversations with the Lord about it. I'm sure he puts ear plugs in now when I get going.
    So, all in all, I don't 'know' that healing's happen very often. I'm sure there are some cases of it, but I know that it just doesn't always happen. I wish it did, especially in cases of sick children. Just doesn't seem fair at all. Guess we'll know the answers when we get to Heaven though.

    1. Your husband sounds like mine did when he was diagnosed. He was absolutely sure that he was going to be cured. His faith was unbelievably strong. I even got a tattoo on my wrist to remind me to have faith. Of course I work in a research setting where many study cancers. I knew the odds.

      We prayed, our family and friends prayed. We wanted that miracle. Ultimately he was healed... not in the way I would have liked. At the very end when he finally admitted he was not going to survive, he said he wanted to go home. He never made it back to our house, but he did go home.

  2. This is such an interesting topic for this Babtist girl with Pentecostal relatives! While I usually envy their passion, I always feel like they check their intellect at the church door. I've seen their desperate yearning for signs and wonders that I always feel like they need to manufacture healings to prove their salvation! I've gone to far too many of their prayer meetings where the "apostle", "prophetess", or "evangelist", tells people they've been healed of an illness they did not even know they had! When I guestion them on the lack of evidence and the glory seeming to only go to the "healer", they treat me like a heathen! I've always said I'd buy their claims, if these healers went to hospitals to perform their miracles rather than only during a crusade or revival. I believe God is sovereign and can still heal but He does not owe us anything - including healing.

    I think it is so harmful telling a person who is desperate for healing that it is their fault that they are not getting healed because they don't have enough faith.

    As for healings and miracles only happening in third world countries, I believe those are the figment of imagination of overly zealous missionaries who want to prove their use in the mission field! I've never met anyone in a third world country who can attest to these seemingly endless miracles that supposedly happen in their countries!

  3. Some may not think so but when I was at the point of taking my own life, God used a Godly counselor and a pagan therapist to save my life. It was, and is, a miracle as I'd been battling un-diagnosed clinical depression for decades. Praise God for Godly men and women, even pagans, who, knowingly or unknowingly, do His will.