Selah's oral surgery went great. She had 6 teeth filled and 6 or 8 teeth pulled, most were baby teeth.
We just want to thank Strong's Hospital and the Dentistry Department for working out all the details for us. It was quite a job to get everything figured out and we really appreciate everything that went into getting it done for Selah. She was originally scheduled to have this done in Florida this month but when the accident happened, that was cancelled. It would have been overwhelming to schedule this after we go home with all that we will be dealing with. Plus with all the problems she had with her teeth/gums she could have gotten an abscess or infection that could have affected her health. Thank you Strong's Hospital for making things easier for us!
Once again Selah's blood pressure meds have been increased, she has a stronger patch and the BP is almost normal! Finally!!!!! Hope this will maintain, the last 24 hours have been the best readings she has had since the accident.
We still don't know for sure when we will be going home, I don't think the details have all been worked out but we still think it will be next week.
Please keep praying for Selah! Tonight driving back and to when I was alone, I just plead with God for her. I reminded Him how very thankful and grateful I had been for my life & how I asked NOTHING but that He keep us healthy and all together. I reminded Him that I didn't ask for anything else. What came back to my mind was the word that was given to me by the German "tourist" (angel???) at the Brandon mall...."Something BIG is coming for your family, Something is ahead of you soon and God doesn't want you to be afraid, many will see...." I know that was a word from the Lord to me. and that just floors me and actually makes me tremble that the God of the Universe would take the time to send me a message and it gives me courage to go on. I wasn't promised a miracle but I was given assurance that I didn't have to be afraid. Can you believe that God took the time to send me that message? That blows my mind. I am soooooo glad I wrote about it on FB and was able to go back and read what I had written so I know I didn't imagine it or was remembering it wrong! I did laugh a little about it at the time and thought it meant we'd adopt the other three children that we grew attached to while at the Ukraine institution our girls were at....everyone told me to go buy a lottery ticket (the lottery was really big around then) we kinda laughed about it but I knew in my heart that the lady was not a looney toon... I sensed something when she spoke, I so wish I'd paid more attention to what she said, I have such a bad memory for details. But maybe that was just what I was supposed to remember....God knew what was ahead, I don't have to be afraid and many will see.... I have to constantly remind myself NOT to be afraid.... In my flesh, I'm afraid of the future, scared witless, to be honest! But my spirit is not afraid...I'm not claiming that God is going to heal her, I do not know but I KNOW He will be with us.
The joy of serving God and walking through tough times or times when I've had to really hang on to God's hand, is that when a new trial comes, you know that God has been with you before and He will do it again! This year 2012 has been an amazing year for our family. We have seen and experienced God's hand like no other time in our life. We have learned to trust deeper and more confidently. We have seen some WILD answers to prayers and have even been blessed above what we have even asked for or thought about., during our adoption. We had miracles in Ukraine as far as paperwork/court process/facilitator/lodgings/favor.... We had the miracle of two little girls who were older, delayed and instiutionzed come into our family with NO issues whatsoever! We had crazy miracles of provision... Then the accident.....and even then there were miracles with the medical students and doctors who were at a picnic nearby who ran to help and had the training that was needed. It seemed God had everyone right in place to help Jon rescue the children. Sam survived with no issues, his eyes didn't even get any infection from the water. Selah survived despite what every doctor said to us in the beginning..so we have been blessed in many many ways. Just typing this, has encouraged my heart and spirit. We serve a good God. How can I but trust Him??? I will not question God foolishly...I will not turn my back on Him. Even if He doesn't do what I want Him to do, I still am going to say I serve a faithful, good God! I can trust Him!
In that vein....I was going to save this for later but it seems to fit nicely now.......
(I may lose some of you now....but...)
When we get home, we have some requests....If you come to visit us/Selah, do not come because you think you are the one to "pray the prayer of faith" don't come arrogantly demanding that God does this or that because I will stop you and ask you to leave. Respect our theological viewpoint that we trust God, we don't tell the God of the Universe what to do. We aren't "speaking Life" or claiming anything, we are not "name it/claim it" and never have been. We believe we try to interrupt scripture within the context of the Bible and take the whole bible in context, not just little bits and pieces. Don't come unless you are going to be with us for the long haul. This is going to be a long walk and we don't need any "fly by nights" coming in and doing their christian voodoo...If you're not going to be there for the long haul, with us don't bother coming. I don't mean to sound mean or nasty but I'm at a point where I am very focused and I don't need to have to deal with anything or be fakey polite.
Also we have had someone come and pray for Selah who prayed that she would be healed and totally "normal", with none of the delays she had before the accident. That REALLY bothered both of us. She was PERFECT to us before the accident! We chose her and Sarah and felt like we were getting beautiful little hidden jewels! She is still perfect to us but so far away and we miss her! The point is Selah (Sam and Sarah) were made by God and we were not and are not ashamed of their delays/mental retardation. They are beautiful to us and we love the way God allowed them to be born. I can't imagine any of them being any different. In the beginning with Sam we did ask for God to heal his mind but we quit praying like that and I believe we began accepting that Sam was fearfully and wonderfully made JUST the way he is! His DNA is so unique that I just have to believe that God made him that way. You may not believe like we do, but do not disrespect what we believe. We live this life, not you! God gave him to us and allowed us to adopt these perfect girls! They might not be perfect to you and it may bother your theology that we accept them just the way they were born mentally. I've yet to read/hear of anyone EVER in history who was born mentally retarded (and no the word mentally retarded does NOT bother me IF it is used in the right context) and then healed later. Can we just accept that God creates us all differently???
Now I can pray that God heals Selah from the affects of the accident and maybe that doesn't make sense to you but if you can accept the bible says in Psalms 139 that we are all fearfully and wonderfully made then that does two things for me. One it lets me know that the children are fearfully & wonderfully made. Two, we want to see her come back to where she was, where God made her.
Maybe God allows children to be born different so it will teach us all to be more accepting of others and more loving. As a society, we are only as good as how we treat our "weakest" members I didn't understand that until I had Sam and then found what a precious Joy he brought to us. His life keep us tender.
You may not understand what I'm writing but we have dealt with some CRAZIES since Sam was born and I've a bit tired of craziness! It's only gotten worse now and I'm done with it! Someone just cornered my husband and told him it was up to him to get Selah healed....wow...that really puts the respondisibity on my husband huh? Good thing
#1 was that I was not there.....LOLOL #2 that our trust is in God not Jon's or anyone else ability to "get Selah healed"
Do people not realize some of their theology is NO different than voodoo??? Really...when you think you can manipulate God (or a god) then you have more power than God. So if you think by reciting certain scriptures or singing certain songs, praying certain prayers a certain way or whatever will make God do what you want, then your faith is no different than someone who trusts in voodoo. There is no formula to get God to do what you want. Is it so hard for us humans to just sit back and let God hold the reins of our lives? Can we not trust the Creator?
I'm not saying God delights in tragedy or causes it but we live in a fallen world, these are the effects of sin. Death reigns in our mortal body. I don't think God caused the accident nor do I believe it was "Father filtered" (dear God deliver me from silly christian slang that makes me want to throw up) (Father filtered means that God only lets things happen in our lives that is filtered through him, basically meaning He puts his stamp of approval on it...weird way of thinking to me!) I believe based on scripture that things happen in life, God knows what lies ahead and in His mercy may prepare us and He will certainly walk with us through it. I don't believe God micro manges our lives but I believe that He does bless us in ways we don't even understand. There is a balance there and I am trying to stay right there, in balance. ( maybe at some point I'll discuss Arminianism vs Calvinism which are the two main thoughts of Protestant churches.....we are Arminianist believing in the Free will of man and that God knows in His Foreknowledge but He chooses to limit Himself in His dealing with man by not making man into robots that are preprogrammed) Most of the discussion between the two camps are more in regards to the issue of salvation but for me it goes much further than that. I'm not sure I can explain this subject clearly at almost midnight....but I'm sure I will revisit it again!!! The reason I feel I need to share this is a forewarning to be honest...disclaimer here
...if you act crazy from this point on, you will be stopped!
So if you are still my friend....let me know:)
This evening I drove down to Mt Morris to pick up our friends' son to spend the night with the boys. I dropped them off at Laser Tag for them to play a couple of games. We have some sweaty happy boys:) Driving to Mt Morris is the furthest south I've been in 6 weeks! It's such a beautiful area, rolling hills, fields of corn...cute little Village...
Today the weather has been odd, warm and rainy then chilly. Right now I'm freezing again! This is me with my comfy Pj's(thanks Loretta!) on and my nice homemade slippers (thanks future DIL!!!) and nice blanky (thanks Kelly) I'm sitting in the cornor of the small tv room our family has kinda taken over at the RMH:) writing my blog! (actually this pic was taken a few days ago but I'm wearing everything again and am in the same spot LOL)