Waiting.....

Sitting here on hold with Hewitt Packard about my laptop...... been waiting for about 45 minutes, this drives me NUTS!  Glad I have supper in the crock pot, a beef stew, with garlic bread and a salad.....yum! 

I hate waiting.  One of my BFFs growing up is always late...that drove me batty...then I married my husband.....and continued to wait...throw in a relative or two.... more waiting....    I'm one of those on time people, usually ready BEFORE time even with 5 kids so it is so hard for me to understand why others are late and I'm waiting.....

Like I "see" projects' and how to best do them in my mind's eye.  Say getting ready to got to the beach....I pack the night before, just a few things, and leave out things I'll use in the morning like a toothbrush....then as everyone uses something, it goes on the dining room table to be put in a bag.  If someone doesn't put their toothbrush there, they don't' have a toothbrush....  I have everyone's clothes ready the night before....it's easy.   When I worked I had all our clothes done the weekend before for the next week and ironed...  LOL 

So I'm pretty organized....since the accident, a lot of that slipped, THANK GOD I'm getting back to myself.  I was really worried about my mental status for quite awhile.  I couldn't concentrate and couldn't get tasks done.  I'm still not the person I used to be, but I'm getting better, more organized, more able to get tasks done.   

The past 2 years I feel like I've been waiting....we waited on our adoption, we waited on paperwork, we waited on a travel date, we waited in Ukraine.....then we got home and we were waiting again for a travel date to NY for Sam's exam and Sarah's surgery....then the accident....then we WAITED, waited to see if Selah would live, waited to see if she'd wake up....

Now I'm still waiting...some days I don't' know if I should have any hope for real change in Selah.

I try and remember that God prepared me for this situation by sending the woman to talk to me in the mall months before the accident.  If you just started reading my blog....she came up to me and said she had a "word from God"  on May 30, 2012  She said "Something very big is coming for your family in the next few months, Many will see and God does not want you to be afraid"   Well on August 15, 2012 that word came true....  So many things I do not understand but I know God sent her to me......

The word never told me that we'd get a miracle just not to be afraid.  I figure if God can send someone to tell me that then it seems like there is more ahead....

I dream all the time about Selah waking up,,,,all the time.....  and many others do too......

I don't know.....tonight I just don't know what is ahead.  But I'm still waiting......and I HATE waiting....

Please pray for Selah......