What a Wednesday!

Up early and off to Tampa for Shad's surgery......

 

Shad goofing....

 

handsome boy with the Ukraine colors behind him

 

still playing the DS

 

 

 

it's all done and we're going home...still got the DS LOL

 

The circumsion  went fine, Shad is in some pain right now and has not been able to pee.....  we think it is psychological otherwise we will have to go back to the hospital soon. 

 

Shad won everyone's heart at the hospital, as usual and was so brave, not even a whimper.  Even now as the shot they gave him has worn off, he is so brave.  I've fought tears several times, you can't help but hate to see your child in pain!!!  So he has done better than ME!   Although he did weasel out another game  from me:)  

 

We had the oddest experience when we were being discharged....evidently he was the last child to be discharged from day surgery.  The nurse was ready for us to leave as soon as I walked into recovery.  He could not even sip from the drink I bought him at that point he was so woozy.   I told her NO we weren't leaving yet.  I was there by myself, there was no way I was leaving with him so groggy.  So we waited another 30 minutes, the Pepsi seemed to help....  so I asked for a wheelchair.  My plan was to take him to the cafeteria to feed him as he was starving.  She got all snarky with me and told me we needed to leave the hospital and go get food somewhere else.  It was stinking bizarre!!!  He could hardly walk, there was no way I was going to try and take him in anywhere to eat at that point!   She said she wanted to see him get in the car.  I told her she could see him go to the café and eat.  I've never ever left a hospital with a child who had been under that they didn't want to see him eat/drink !  She was so odd!  I told her I was going to take him down in the wheelchair and watch him eat and make sure he didn't get sick.  She then said not to worry about him throwing up, she'd give me a basin to take home with me and we could leave.  I want to report her, but it was so weird I don't' even know how to complain LOL  She then forgot all our paperwork and I had to remind her.  What a wack job!!!

 

My BFF called me today at the hospital....she had a dream last night about Selah.  She dreamed that she had come to visit us and Selah just all of a sudden "woke up"  Then Angela read my post from yesterday....we both felt God was telling me to hang on!  Angela had not read my blog till this morning, nor had she ever dreamed about Selah before....pretty cool to me.  Yesterday I was tired of having dreams about Selah coming back to us, as it hurt too much when I work up and realized it was just a dream.....but maybe God is preparing me.

 

One thing that gives me hope in a weird way.....nothing has worked out for us to move or even get a handicapped accessible van.   I'm by NO means some type of prosperity preacher LOL  BUT God always provides WHAT WE NEED....so I have not pushed things, I've thought they will work out the way they need to for her/us.   NOTHING would make me happier than NOT needing to move, NOT needing a handicapped accessible van!  Maybe we won't need any of that for Selah, maybe God in His mercy will heal her. 

 

But it's still hard.  Honestly I've fought off a panic attack all day.  It started on the way to the hospital.  Jon has missed so much work, he is trying to build back up his leave.  Steve had to stay with the little ones, and none of my friends could come with me.   It's not like I don't do things on my own.....even big medical things but I think because I knew Shad was going to be in pain afterwards, I was really stressed and I'm just really SAD......  I've not taken a pill in over a month and had taken them out of my purse....JUST yesterday LOL   So I had to do deep breathing quite often to help me and it did.  Praying we don't have to take Shad back to the hospital tonight!!!!

 

I know I was going to tell you all about our newest orphan project, but I think I'll hold off till the next post and devote it to her and her family.  But get ready to be involved!!!!