Honesty

Last night I sat up reading...... "Until we all come Home" by Kim De Blecourt.     The book was about a family's struggles to adopt in Ukraine.  It was interesting to me, knowing Ukraine and all the stories I have heard.  The writer sounded like a bit of a whiner to me in the beginning, but then as the book progressed, I figured she had a right to whine LOL.  I went to Ukraine expecting the worst possible outcome and we had the best possible outcome.  We had no issues, it was like a vacation except for the food.  Obviously our hearts were broken for a lot of the things we saw but we had no issues with the government or the institution, it was like we were walking on a red carpet and doors flew open for us.  Their were hardships in some areas of our comfort, no one likes an overnight train, but all of that was to be expected.  We adopted two non related children and were home in less than 6 weeks.  That is unheard of, but it probably had a lot to do with our wonderful friend and facilator George.  All I can say is I am VERY glad I did not read this book BEFORE we went to Ukraine or I would have be much more worried!

This morning I got up early and got a beef stew going in the crock pot.  Sam and Sarah will be very happy tonight as that is their favorite meal.  I've been so focused on going through my whole house and really going through "our stuff" and culling out things.  Since the Monier family is having a yard sale, it's been a good excuse for me to clean out everything and that I have done.  I still have a box of paperwork to go through and I just bought a fire proof safe for all our really important paperwork like the adoptions of our kids, those are papers you can't just order down at the courthouse.  

I LOVE having every cabinet, closet and drawer gone through and emptied out.   I would love having a business to do this for others but I am quite brutal when I help friends out LOL  I've had a few in tears before.  I'm such a person NOT attached to STUFF that I can not understand how anyone is.....sure I keep some things, like the dresses the girls left the orphanage in, the outfits the boys came home in, Shad's Chinese clothes....but hey....that is enough already.   I'm not a communist or anything LOL but if I'm not using something, I don't feel the need to hold onto it.  There are a few things I keep that I seldom use like the beautiful Ann Taylor red wool coat I found in a thrift store in Rochester some years ago for $5!  I wear it like 2x a year but I LOVE it.  I just don't like a bunch of clutter.   It "bothers" me.

My family laughs at me when I say "that bothers me"...They KNOW what that means.....it's like fingernails on a chalk board.  If something is "bothering me" like clutter I can't be still or peaceful until it is taken care of.  I think when I had Sam and his "autistic like" behavior, I totally "got " him because I am so like him in some areas.  Things just "bother" me sometimes

Sometimes people just "bother' me....or situations....I like things "tidy" no loose ends. 

I'm one of those few  people who really am just myself all the time.  If I like you, I like you.....if I don't, you will know it and not have to wonder.  I do not play games at all and I will say to your face the very SAME thing I will say behind your back LOL.  I'm not saying I won't talk about you, but I'll say it to your face too LOL   Let's just say you do not have to wonder where you stand with me.

But you know what "bothers" me ???   Most of the world is not like that....that drives me batty-I am not PC -politically correct- in any area.  What I mean is I don't care if I'm in a group and everyone things one way IF I think another.  I don't go around trying to fight or argue, but I don't let myself be swayed.....  This can be good but it also can be bad.   Because I'm sure I'm not ALWAYS right LOL  But it does bother me when people are not honest. 

When I saw the movie "Liar Liar"  I thought I would die laughing.  I'm so much like the actor after he quits lying and HAS to tell the truth.  Sometimes I wish I wasn't like this and there are a few times I can, in a sense, put my hands over my mouth. and hold it in for civility sake but it is sooooo hard for me.   Generally this is not a good thing for a pastor's wife LOL. 

Another thing about me is people don't "awe" me in the least.....whether it is a politician, a celebrity or some big name minister, I'm just not impressed at all.  Not that I've met a ton of folks like them but let's say the ones I've met, have left me "not feeling it"  I met one guy at a function one time....I was standing where I could see up his nose and he had the BIGGEST booger in the world.  THAT was ALL I could focus on .....I won't say who it was....as he might be president one day but that was the funniest and most revealing thing to me.  It definitely  showed me we were all "just folks" didn't matter who you are, you could still have a big booger hanging out of your nose  ROFLOL 

Being a pastor's wife, I have seen so much.  IF I didn't know God for myself....His "followers" would surely turn me off.  But  hypocrisy,is not just in the Christian religion, I've seen it personally acted out in the Buddhist and Muslim religions also when the followers did not do as their religion dictated in certain areas.  I have a couple of stories...maybe one day I can tell LOL  I think hypocrisy is a HUMAN thing....

There is a funny bumper sticker I keep threatening my husband that I will buy it and it says something like "God protect me from your followers"  LOL   One of these days....I will buy it and put it on my van. 

I am so glad I know that GOD is so far above all our human frailties' and woes...  I learned that a long time ago and I know it is still true.  God is far above my frail human self.....  I think all the time I am probably one of the worst Christians.....  I am sure I do not represent Christ as I should most of the time.  I have a temper....just a little one, I'm cynical and jaded.  I'm glad God is a stronger God than I show Him to be. 

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Got a package today from one of my bestest friends, Meichelle.  She lives all the way across the country but she sent me a box NOT to be opened till the anniversary of the accident.  She knows how much I am dreading this day.  I have to say I shook the box around a bit and there sounded like some liquid in there.  I'm wondering........

 

Here is us from her recent trip to Florida

 

 

 

 

Friends are so important in life.....I'm so glad she is my forever friend

 

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