What a difference a year makes.....

 

 

 

 

 

As I continue to think of last year....   we got up early in West VA and stopped at a local dam.  Here is Sam on the path.

 

the bridge we drove over

 

my little ones.....

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

All of my kids....the last picture of all of them together before the accident

 

 

 

I had gotten these stickers in Mt Airy and put them on the van that morning.

 

 

 

 

We drove all the way to Rochester that day...as we were driving into Rochester, coming off one interstate and going onto another, there was a huge rainbow.  I tried to get a picture but failed.  It just made me so happy to see it.  We were so glad to make it to Rochester, to see our friends and to have Sam and Sarah checked out. 

 

Again it is just surreal to me still....I can remember driving into the city, so clearly with so much hope.....we had no idea....none.....

 

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We left for the beach today,  Before we left, Sarah had her Physical Therapy session and we left as our wonderful therapist was working with Selah.  Actually I was dreading leaving her but it was ok.  Her therapist talked about how Selah is so relaxed at home and how it represents security and no pain like the hospital.  That helped.  Our nurses are very supportive of our family and that is also a big help. 

 

We stopped for lunch and got to the resort early.  We are quite happy with it, right on the beach and the room is bigger than we thought it would be. 

 

 

here is lunch, everyone looked serious figuring out what to eat LOL

 

 

 

 

Sarah's shirt says "Little Miss Happy Happy Happy"  she is a happy girl  

 

 

 

Here is Sarah in her beach seat.  She LOVES the water.  We sat on the shore for awhile too and she actually played in the sand.  I love how she doesn't have a ton of things -textures - that bother her.  Sam had many.....

 

 

 

yep it looks just like the pictures

 

Shad worked hard on some sand castles...he wasn't so thrilled with the life vest I made him wear in the water but it made me much more secure

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

the view from our balcony

 

 

Sam decided lunch did him in and he took a long nap in our room.  We took turns staying with him.  He is happy just relaxing...he will be out tomorrow I'm sure.  That is the nice thing about staying over night and having a room the little ones can take naps in.

 

 

It's so odd to have so many different emotions rolling around inside....I feel thankful that Selah is stable right now...happy that she is content, happy to be with my other kids but still sad.... still in shock over this past year.  I still love the beach, nothing like the feeling of sand between my toes and the waves crashing.....  I realize things could be so much worse for us, we could have lost both children that day....Selah could be so much more worse than she is.... I try to remain grateful...it is hard. 

 

Thank you all for the very very kind comments posted, yesterday was very hard for me.  My emotions are up and down.... on the drive here, I was praying that God would have mercy on Selah and heal her and that next year we would all go on vacation together....that would be the most wonderful thing but I still will trust God no matter what.