ESP-my experience!

ESP or extrasensory perception is perception occurring independently of sight, hearing, or other sensory processes. 

Growing up I had some unusual experiences.  I still don't really know exactly what to think of those experiences. 

The first thing I remember is playing outside (remember when kids stayed outside all day long?)  And I'd keep hearing my name called.  I'd go to the back door and ask my aunt what she wanted.  Time and again she'd tell me she didn't call me.   We didn't have any kids living around us and we had plenty of land.  I was probably 8 or 9 years old when that happened.  I didn't like it, it made me feel odd.

Then as I grew a bit older, I'd KNOW things, just know them.  For example, one day I was in our garage and I "knew" my uncle was going to die.  I can remember where I was standing when the thought came to me.  It scared me so bad.  Within a few months he died, he was diagnosed with cancer just a few weeks before he died.  As far as I know he was not sick acting that I remember or knew consciously.  I was about 12 years old when that happened.

Then as I grew a bit older, strange things started happening.  At night we'd hear things, like voices in the house.  At this point my aunt was hearing them too.  Also several times I was attacked in my sleep by "something"  my clothes were pulled on and I was scratched.  Several times we even called the police thinking maybe there was someone in our house. 

So as things progressed, I'd still hear my name called, I still "knew" things.....  My aunt actually became somewhat concerned and told me that our family had a background in "white" witchcraft.  She told me I had an uncle who could "water witch" (find water by using a stick) and another one who could cure warts and stop bleeding by reciting a bible verse....a verse from the "book of Moses" not from the Bible.

As a teen I was trying to live for God so I went to my pastor.  He really didn't know how to deal with it.  He suggested sleeping with a bible and "anointing the doors and windows with oil"  Well that didn't do anything.....

Our church changed pastors quite frequently so in a few months we had another one and this guy and his wife took me serious. 

I KNEW in my heart that none of those things were from God.  The way I knew is that the "knowing" and the voices  did not bring any peace.  (btw my aunt also heard the voices LOL so I'm not psychotic!!!!!  We could never understand the words, it was like a murmuring) 

So they taught me that as a Christian I had authority over the devil and I didn't have to do silly things, I could just speak the word and command evil to be gone.  I asked God to take away the "ESP" and then I by myself, told all those things to leave....and it left!!!!!!  Forever! 

Once during my freshman year of bible college, some odd things happened, like my lights would come on by themselves and the clock radio would too.  Again I said the same thing and all that stuff was gone!

I just felt I should tell this experience.  I am NOT into giving any glory to the devil (yes I believe in a real defeated devil)   But there might be someone struggling with this who reads my blog.

Over the years as a Christian I have had some experiences that have been amazing.  God has certainly spoken to my heart things that came to past.  The first time I remember that happening was right after all this other stuff got dealt with.  I was a senior in high school.   I went out to our mailbox, opened it and took out a flyer for Southeastern College and when I touched it, I KNEW I was going to go to that college!!   I can remember that moment vividly.  It was a "knowing" that came from God. 

I believe God still speaks to people.  I believe whatever you hear MUST line up with scripture.  Obviously there is no scripture in the Bible telling anyone to go to SEC but it was a decision that would take a lot of work on my part and some miracles on God's part and it honored God. 

I've had a couple of dreams that I KNOW was from God, both dreams, were of the Rapture of the church.  Very real and they have stuck with me for many years.

God spoke to me several years before Sam was born, when I was deep in a valley and told me that I'd have a son named Sam and he would change my life.....well.....   How did I "hear" God?  In my heart, I guess.....at the time I was alone in the car and almost wondered if the words were said aloud as they were so LOUD to me. 

I believe that God sent that woman to me in the Mall before the accident to tell me NOT to be afraid of the future.  Her words didn't' bring any fear to me, but they certainly brought a lot of comfort after the accident happened. 

GOD has given me a lot of discernment.  I think some of it comes from the life I grew up in ( as far as seeing some craziness and being able to recognize the same kind of craziness in others LOL especially in church and church behavior.)  Some of it came from my job as a probation officer, learning about human nature (believe me if you were any type of law enforcement you had NO doubt of the sinfulness of man!!!)   And some of my discernment is God given.  The reason I think it is God given, is because first of all I renounced any type of witchcraft of ESP that might have come through my family or any sin I ever did.  Second, with the knowing, comes a peace and an answer. 

For example one time a minister wanted to get involved with our ministry while we were in NYC.  I told Jon "no way do not get involved with him"  I said he was a pervert and a homosexual....  My husband got on to me for saying that since I had NOTHING to base that on and the minister was rather popular.....fast forward a few years and he was on the front page of the newspaper for his deviate actions and arrest.......Let's just say THAT newspaper got thrust in my husband's face.   I didn't say that about the man to be mean to him, just I knew if we worked with him, we'd be caught up in problems. 

Other times I've told my husband not to trust certain people and without fail.....there are problems with them.  I don't say to be mean to them, we still love and minister to them, but we are careful.   I think God gives that discernment. 

The devil will always have a counterfeit to the REAL thing that comes from God.  But remember the real is so much better.  When I'm "impressed" by God to do something or "led by God's spirit"  it is for the good and there is a peace.   There is such a difference from what I felt growing up. 

We have a friend who is Wiccan and we got into this conversation one time.  He thought I was wrong not to cultivate the "gift" I had.  But I knew where that "gift" came from and I was not willing to play that game or pay that ultimate price!


I'm not all into "there is a demon behind every bush" or the popular idea of "breaking generational curses"  However we did pray over our children that IF there is such a thing as a generational curse, that it be broken.  None of my children have ever experienced anything like this.  They are not fearful at night and we have a grave yard on the property LOL

So like I said, I just felt I should share this.  This is something I seldom talk about but I did feel I should this time.

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Today I got to eat lunch with one of my BFF's we have a Tuesday Tradition and it is wonderful:)

I got some more of my errands done but life and other things threw me some more...

This was my FB post this morning.....
 

"Well we had a crazy experience last night. Something was "off" with Selah's inhaled antibodic Tobramycin. It smelled like Elmer's Glue and me and the nurse was coughing. She took it off of her and we called the doctor, It was really frightening for us as we had a strong reaction to it. Thankfully Selah handled it better than we did. She's been on it for months and it does not have a smell li...ke that. Now they will have to investigate everything before she can use it again. The prescription is thousands of dollars for a month and we don't know what is going to happen to it.

I feel like I've been dealing with all kinds of stupid stuff lately like that! Her feeds got ordered but didn't come. Then our nurse finds they (the company) has the order all wrong and we have one order form the doc and they have another that would only give Selah 500 calories a day instead of the normal 1000+ UGH!!!!!!!"

 

Still dealing with this tonight!

 

 But after I picked up Shad from school, we all went outside for 2 hours.  The boys pushed the little ones on the swings, listened to music and talked.  And our nurse figured out a great way to use the beanbag on the big swing so Selah is more comfy.  She did great outside, very interested in everything!!

 

A NEW THING WE HAVE NOTICED!!!!!!

 

Selah has responded to noise or pain since about 8 weeks after the accident.  However she usually turns away from the noise or pain.  Just in the last few days she has consistently turned towards whoever was talking to her NOT away from.  When she got her shots, she looked down towards her leg!  This is something that the rehab told us to look for and then to come back once it started happening....yeah right Yvonne said REALLY sarcastically!  Never ever taking my girl back to that "rehab"  It's exciting.  Friday starts HBOT!!!!   We are praying that God will use this to heal her brain!!!!!  Please keep our sweet LaLa in your prayers.  She was so relaxed and contented outside.  I'm so glad when we do things that make her obviously happy.