Giving away the Crib

I got a surprise today and a friend came by to see me.  We went to eat, took the kids around, took Steve to class, ate again....rode around, had a good time....  As we were talking, my friend mentioned her daughter's upcoming baby and things clicked to me.

After we came home from NY, we took apart Selah's crib.  It was a pretty awful time for me.  I couldn't even be here while it was happening.  Since then we've had it in storage.  It's beautiful and obviously only used for a couple of months. 

 

 

I found this picture of Sam and Selah sitting and watching tv, quite ironically I wrote they were watching Veggie Tales singing "the Erie Canal" song  that DVD is banned forever in our home......  This was only weeks before we left for NY.  As I was going through the pictures, looking for one of her crib....I realized I had tears running down my face looking through all the pictures, not sobbing just tears flooding my face.   

I miss that little girl so much.......

The crib to the right was Selah's crib.  All three of them had matching cribs. 

Today that crib went home with my friend so she can have it when her granddaughter comes over to stay with her.  It's a little hard.  But Steve reminded me that even if Selah "came back to us" she is now too big for the crib.  That helped some.  I'm glad the crib is going to a happy family who is excited about their new grandbaby.  I wanted to give it to someone I knew.....  We had also been given some brand new car seats after the accident and I was able to give her one of those also, since we won't be able to use it. 

When I first mentioned the crib  to my friend, we were talking about doing it later, but I just felt like I had to do it today  There's a part of me that would like to bronze it....but that is silly, I try not to be a person that holds on to things.  I've seen people crowd their homes with furniture and things that belonged to someone who had passed away and it just looked sloppy and messy.  I now understand why they do it.....

When my great aunt passed away and I inherited the home, I didn't have a problem getting rid of things.  I picked a few things out to keep, sold some, gave away some and threw away a lot.  This is so different.....

So ...I'm in a reflective mood tonight.....missing my girl

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It may seem odd to you to have such older children in cribs but Sam still sleeps in his crib and he is almost 10 years old.  For Sam and Sarah it is a safety feature for them so they don't fall out of bed (especially Sarah)  And it is a safety thing for me, if they are in the crib, I know where they are!    Both of them are small and seem to be quite happy with a crib.  When I was in NY with Sam in May, He couldn't tolerate a big bed and obviously wanted a crib to sleep in.  He doesn't mind sleeping in a big bed, if someone is with him.....  The kids don't try and get out of their crib so it's fine.  Actually Sam tries to climb INTO his crib at night.  He is ALL about going to sleep and taking naps during the day.  Funny boy!

BTW, my friend hadn't seen Selah since she finished HBOT and she really thinks Selah seems so much more alert and "there".  It was nice to hear someone say that.  She mentioned several things that looked so much better now.  It's always good to hear positive statements.

So everyone is doing good....please keep praying for Selah.....