Day 28 Fish OIl Study

Selah is doing better today although she is having regular breathing treatments,  No fevers since Friday morning so that is good.  It looks like she is recovering from this whatever it was....thank God!


One thing I have noticed today, and our doctor remarked on it also,  is that Selah is keeping her tongue in her mouth more.  Most people who have neurological injuries and/or have had breathing tubes tend to let their tongues hang out some.  It is because it is easier and gravity actually plays a part in it.  Selah has shown tongue control but today has been great, she is amazing!!!

We have some great news.....

A dear friend that we went to college with, really got burdened for our family's housing situation for when we go to Jax for rehab.  He contacted a friend of his, who listened to Bryan and read our blog and then his friend, Bill, went to his church Mandarin United Methodist about it....  Several Sunday School classes and groups of the church wanted to get involved in helping us....  So a special family offered us the use of a home rent free for up to 3 months!  The house is beautiful and in a great area of town:)  The different groups in the church are committing to various things such as the utilities, bringing in dinners etc....  We are beyond blown away by all of this.  What is so wonderful is we have been concerned about how long she would have in rehab.  The average stay in patient is around 3 weeks, that's not to say she wouldn't stay longer but we were worried because we feel she needs much more than that.  We have some great therapists set up for her in Zephyrhills but no one that has worked anyone off a trach.  The speech therapist we have set up, has never done that and doesn't feel comfortable with trying to do that.  BUT now even if she has to leave in patient  quicker than we'd hoped for (due to insurance! ) we could probably  still stay there a few more weeks and do intensive out patient therapy I think!  So it looks like God has once again provided for this little girl....(we are just along for the ride) 

This past year (since November '11) when we committed to adopting Sarah, has been a complete adventure.  We have never experienced anything like it.  God has led us throughout this year, through the different paths,  He has remained faithful to us & we commit to stay faithful to Him.  This year has filled me with more joy than I ever thought was possible and certainly more sorrow than I thought my heart could bear.  But the one thing that has remained consistent has been the faithfulness of God. 

We said YES to God last November when we saw Sarah's picture.  We knew we wanted to rescue two children and God sent us Selah!  We had no idea what was ahead for us but God did and He has walked with us through this past year in such a real way!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qOkImV2cJDg

This song has spoken to me alot lately....  "Whom Shall I Fear?"   by Chris Tomlin
"I know who goes before me, I know who stands behind, the God of Angel Armies is always by side, the One who reigns forever is a friend of mine"   That last line...."the one who reigns forever is a friend of mine" just gets me every time I hear it....

My mind goes back countless times to the ONE prophecy I've ever gotten that I really believe was from God, that day in the mall bathroom.....  "your family is going to go through something big in the next few months, do NOT fear, many will see"    Only God knows how many times I have clung to that word...espicially the "do NOT fear"   The worst days when I could barely control my body to keep it from shaking or the times when the tears flowed like rain to the point my vision was affected, I clung to that word.  There wasn't a promise of healing but rather an admonition to me, to not fear.  It was NOT  given to me in some angry judgemental way....but in a calm peaceful way.  I felt it was said "like a hug".  A promise that there was no need to fear because God was going to walk throught things with us, no matter what that was....   Many times I've said to God " I will not fear ......"   Sometimes it was "I will not fear the doctor's words" or many times it was "I will not fear the future"   The future was sooooooo scary at times.  Even now, there are unknowns but I know the ONE who goes before me...

So tonight as I write it, sitting once again by my little girls' bedside, I KNOW that the God of this Universe is a faithful God!   Tonight I sit here with thankfulness in my heart for the progress she has made and with hope for the future.  But even in the worst days, I still knew that the God of this Universe was faithful....  that truth carried me days when I thought my daughter would die, it carried me when I thought she would never even know I was beside her, days when she was so far away....

I can promise you that there is nothing in this world worth hanging on to compared to living for God!  For many years, even as a Christian I tried to "make things happen" and be in control of my life.  If you can't tell, I'm pretty much "living in the moment" at this point...some might call it "living by the seat of my pants" LOL  I don't know what lies ahead, good or bad...but I KNOW that God is with us and I know we want to live surrendered lives, now and in the future. 

Please keep praying for Selah!  Thank you!!!!