Another Productive Day- Still Pray for Selah

This has been a productive week for me.  This morning I packed up and went to the library and did all the re adoption paperwork for my girls, met Jon at the prison, got him to sign some things, went to lunch with my hubby with NO kids  it was at Wendy's but hey.....then took everything to the lawyer and left it with her, I am so happy to have that done. 

This afternoon I picked up some things for the Monier family's yard sale- yes you can still be a part of that and met with our church's book keeper....  Plus got groceries and a new coffee pot- our old one had died on us as we keep it going around here LOL 

I just feel like I'm on a roll- of course the roll has kept me from my yoga and aerobic classes, but you can't have everything.  We only have one more week and then school starts and we get on a real schedule then. 

Selah has continued stable but I feel just a little off, maybe from the antibiotic?  But all and all she is good. 

We are fast approaching the anniversary of the accident.  This is something I've been dreading, right this moment I feel numb.  Next week it might be a different matter......   Since next week is the only time that worked for Jon to take a few days off, we are going to go somewhere for a few days.  I don't know how things are going to go, maybe that's why I'm manically busy right now so I don't think about things....

Please pray for Selah, I still ask God for a miracle for her.  I'm an adult, I can carry a burden, but she is just a little girl, she deserves more of life than what she has had....  Of course we take great care of her, and anticipate all her needs and keep her comfortable.  Anyone that comes and sees her can tell she is peaceful but I want her up and running and playing.....I want her to grab my legs likes she used to do, I want her to be outside on the swing set.....that's what I want..... 

It's so funny the different advices I get....some folks tell me to "just accept things and learn to be happy" some say "God will give you a miracle" ....I'm IN this situation and I'm in the middle.....I can accept things as I've learned to do.  LOL  I think ME of all people have learned how to accept adversity in my life   LOL and RME -roll my eyes-    and there is a part of me that still believes that for Selah there will be a miracle on this earth.   Some days I have both of those thoughts going through my head. 

I don't know....I STILL do not believe this is IT for my Selah.  Maybe I've seen too many Disney movies where the princess gets rescued....but Selah had had a life that you would not want to wish on your worst enemy .....then we hear about her and include her in our adoption plans....and learn to love her.....then we get her and come home with the girls and it is so magical....just unreal how sweet and easy everything was.  I felt like I was in love with two wonderful little girls and everything was so special....the days were brighter, every morning I couldn't wait to get up and get them out of bed and play with them.  It was like you feel when you have a newborn, and can't stand to leave them alone.  It was just absolutely wonderful.....then to have this awful accident, how could it be?   You couldn't write a movie, that would be any sadder....just  fourteen weeks of freedom for her....  I beg God daily to allow her to come back to us, so she can have a life free from all of this medical stuff.  Please don't give up on praying for Selah, we haven't....there are nights I get up to take care of her when we don't have a nurse and as I'm meeting her needs, I'm praying inside my heart for my beautiful little girl.  I'm half awake and I'm praying ....sometimes I'm in the grocery store and I'm praying inside my head.  I pray when I'm driving down the road....it doesn't stop....

Thank you for your prayers for her.  Don't give up.....