Bulllying

Bullying is all in the news right now although it is nothing new.  I grew up being bullied.  Living in a non nuclear family (great aunts rather than parents) having freckles and glasses, spending alot of my childhood having to wear dresses....yep I was ripe for bullies.  I remember when I was young thinking at least once I became an adult I would haven't to deal with bullies anymore....LOL   We all know that's not true!

But I have to say my family gave me skills for dealing with bullies WITHOUT giving me skills.  Back in the day, kids had to deal with kids on their own.  Parents didn't step in, schools didn't step in.... you were on your own.  Well that's the absolute best thing a kid can learn.  That kid will always have to deal with bullies and no one can save him.

This recent video that has been all over the internet is awful.  I'm sorry for the child if this story is true.  Regardless I'm sorry for the child.  I'd absolutely never ever record nor upload such a video of my child.  There are now questions being asked about the situation- I'm not going to point fingers but I do wish folks would learn a little discernment and not jump on every FB bandwagon that comes along!

We parent our older boys and our little ones totally different.  Obviously we are the advocates for our little ones.  Believe me I've been bullied in their place especially dealing with the local school board.  They do not understand things and are non verbal.  But even in their limited understanding we try to make them as independent as possible.

But for our older boys, we've taught them to deal with issues with other kids on their own.  I don't think I've ever talked to another parent about how their child treated my child.  I did talk to a teacher once and found that MY son was the instigator in a situation.  From that point on that kid was on his own!

There are times when a parent has to get involved.  One time we were in a restaurant and three grown men began making fun of Shad, his Chinese background and his eye.I heard them over the partion of our booth and I tore around that booth so quick and was in their faces shaming them  before they knew what hit them.  That was a bit different, Shad was six years old and these were grown nasty men.  Believe me the whole restaurant was watching that show.  I handed them their butts on a platter so to speak LOL   But we have talked about it many times there will be a time when Shad is made fun of that he has to stand up for himself.  I hope I gave him some confidence by being bold that he will use if he ever needs it.

We have a funny story about our oldest son.  When he was in 9th grade he was dealing with an awful bully.  I listened to him complain about the situation.  One day I picked them up from school and he told me that he had knocked the boy down.  I parked the car just knowing that he was suspended for this.,   I hurried into the school and met with the principal.  The principal told me that if Steve hadn't knocked the boy on his butt he would have suspended Steve!  LOL   I'm sure that is an unique way of handling things but it totally worked!  In fact, Steve never had to deal with another bully and the story has grown over the years.  Now it is a legend with his friends!

But as much as I felt  bad for my son as he was dealing with the situation, I did not intervene.  Why is that?  Because he is now a grown man, in college, working several jobs, I can not fight his battles for him today and he needed those experiences as a child to give him the confidence to deal with things today.

Just because a person becomes an adult, bullying does not stop.  I was bullied in jobs, in ministry and in church situations, those things I learned as a kid has done me well in the adult situations.  My adult son has had some hard things happen in jobs and at college, he deals with them.  He might share with me the situation, sometimes after it's over, but he has to deal with it.  His dad and I can not do it for him.

I'm sorry for children being brought up today by helicopter parents.  How will the children cope when they are grown?  The only time we've ever intervened with our kids are in cases where we did not want our kids to be around other kids because of issues such as drug use, bad behavior etc.    There were times we did not give our kids the choice but not too often.

I want my kids to deal with life and not be little snowflakes that can take any heat.  Life can be hard.  My hope is that they will be able to stand when someone is mean to them or disagrees with them.

My advice to you if you have children who have no special needs, let your children work things out on their own.  Listen to them, talk to them but don't make them a victim.  And don't make it be the end of the world either.

We've all met adult victims, everyone is out to get them, everything is against them....do you really want to enable your child to become a person like that?  I sure do NOT!   I want my kids to be able to let most things run off their backs but I also want them to have the backbone to stand up for themselves and others if needs be too.

Honestly my generation and the generations of parents after me have turned kids into wimps.  It's sad.  The kids can not handle any adversity, whether it's a bully, a hard class, a mean employer...how will these kids make it in the real world???   One summer my oldest son had the employer from hell.  the guy hated Steve (which was odd because most people love him) but we did not let him quit.  He really didn't ask to quit but we didn't give him any encouragement that way.   We just laughed and encouraged him to make it through the summer.  He did make it through and he was so happy when it was his last day there.  That job has made him appreciate the jobs he has now!  It was good for him, even at the time I thought it was good for him.

So I encourage you to teach your kid backbone and courage.  Don't coddle them.  Don't fight their battles for them.  Let them learn how to deal with hard things.  It's actually good for them.

And I don't want to get messages saying "BUT you don't understand...."   No unfortunately it is you who do not understand.  Even if you child has some impairments, they can still learn through things.
Sam and Sarah have a bit of a sibling rivalry going on.  Sam is loud and Sarah does not like that.  Often if he's loud in the living room which is HER area she will just cry and cry.  I do comfort her but I try to talk her down and calm her.  It's not the same as bullying but to her I think she thinks he is being a bully.  I'm teaching her to ignore and deal with things.  She needs that skill also. Every child needs to develop skills as best as they can to cope with life.

Happy Birthday Jon

Happy Birthday Jon!

A smirking Gingerbread man and a lemon cake is what you get LOL

He also got new cowboy boots and a giant coffeemaker and special spicy boiled peanuts.  We love boiled peanuts in the south!  

We have gone Gluten free/Low carb  99% at home- trying to be as grain free as possible and honestly it's not hard at home.  GF is actually easy!  Eating out is more of a challenge.  The challenge is most recipes are not low fat which Jon has to have.  I substitute unsweetened applesauce for oil or butter and it works pretty good.  And of course I use  egg whites instead of whole eggs.  We try everything to be as heart healthy as possible. 

Before Jon's heart attack the only cholesterol that was a little high was his triglycerides.  But since it was only a few points over, the doctor did not even push him to go on a statin.  Everything else was perfect no high blood pressure or sugar or anything out of whack.   Of course a week and half later he had a heart attack with five complete blockages....   That just makes me a "little stressed" 

Now he is on statin drugs, his cholesterol is very low.  His numbers are crazy low but for his situation that's how it has to be.  So I continue to do everything I possibly can to ensure he has a lot more birthdays!!! 

I think I still am in shock that my husband had a heart attack.  Knowing his family history he was so careful.  I can remember having a conversation with him when we first got married about eating healthy.  The only reason I thought about diet back then was to lose weight.  I didn't think about my health at all.  I loved anything fried! 

His dad's doctor had told the boys that they'd better be careful or they'd also end up on the operating table!  So he was determined NOT to do that!  On his dad's side there were 8 siblings I believe and all but one had heart issues and I think that was what they all died from.  Then Jon's younger brother had a heart attack in his 30's.  He had two male cousins die from heart related issues.  As i began cooking, I learned to cook healthier than how I was raised.... we loved fried food!  In 28 plus years of marriage I don't think I've fried more than maybe 10 times.  Sometimes a girl has to have fried green tomatoes!  I do have an air fryer now that is wonderful.  But that's healthy! 

When Jon had his heart attack and surgery I felt like the rug was pulled out from underneath my feet.  We did everything right!  We ate right, exercised like a fiend, watched blood pressure, sugar, weight....  His doctor said Jon's situation was unavoidable and probably Jon managed to put it off by 10-15 years because of his healthy life style.  He also said Jon survived a very serious situation because of his good lifestyle and the fact he had no other health issues.  The doctor said 99% of heart patients he sees are there because of poor life style choices. 

i don't think I shared on here but prior to the surgery, the surgeon told me it was very serious and an emergency surgery (they had planned to do the surgery the next morning)  He could not promise me that Jon would make it.  To say I was scared was an understatement, my legs shook.  I look back at some pictures we took just prior to all of that and I get stressed- we had no idea what was ahead! 

So I'm grateful for the almost two years that have passed since that day.  I'm really grateful the heart attack did not take place when we were staying in Ukraine adopting the girls or when he was alone in the woods on one of his hikes.  God was merciful to us. 

Because of everything we've gone through we tend to take health things very seriously!.  We go to all our check ups and if something seems off we get it checked out.  At this point I'm probably a hypochondriac!!!!    But I want to encourage you NOT to put off any medical issue you have going on!  Get it checked out!  Do all the screenings!  Eat healthy Exercise!  Walking is the best exercise and it's free and can be done anywhere!!!



And if you exercise all morning that's what you'll do in the afternoon!  LOL  Sarah will NOT keep socks on no matter how chilly buy she loved her fleeced shirt and pants. 

For his birthday Jon took Selah and her nurse to Orlando for a doctor's appointment.  Before we bought Selah a van I took her everywhere but I just can not drive her van.  It's so big and tall.  I knew this was going to happen but we got such a good deal on it, we just couldn't' pass it up.  I tried one time to drive it and I just could not do it!  Honestly I don't even like to ride in it!  But Selah absolutely loves her van.  It is very easy to tell, she relaxes and enjoys the ride.  It's easy to tell when she does NOT like something, and sometimes she'll be so upset at a doctor's appointment but when she gets back in her van, she is all relaxed and calm and the frowning face is gone. 



I'm thankful today that the terrorist attack was aborted in NYC! The terrorist was reported living in Brooklyn and came off the ACE subway line (that was our line when we lived there)  Last summer when we were in NYC we went to Penn Station to change the kids and change to a bus.  I saw a video streaming of the ground floor and people running and actually saw the bathroom we went in.  I have a vivid memory because believe me it was quite the production to change the kids there!!   Anyhow it's so sad to see the city we lived in, be terrorized! 

Sunday Pictures

It is hard to take pictures of Sam and Sarah.  They don't understand why they have to be still and smile.  But today I got some of the cutest pictures of Sam!

He posed himself

Little businessman

I had to get a picture of Sarah and her Norway outfit.  It was quite chilly this morning so she opted for something warm!



I get to church early so Shad can go to Sunday School.  Then I can take pictures of the little ones before anyone gets there.  Sometimes if I wait till after church somebody might have an accident & require a costume change!  It happens.....

It is chilly today.  I went for a walk after lunch and was miserable till I hit about 2 miles then it was perfect.  I don't like to be hot but I don't like to be cold either lol.  I can NOT stand to wear heavy jackets or turtlenecks.  When we lived in NYC, I could hardly stand to button my jacket no matter how cold.  I get very claustrophobic-I guess living in Florida we aren't used to wearing much clothes LOL  It's even hard for me to wear long pants, it just seems like too much material on me.  Capri pants are ok but i generally live in skorts or shorts.

We celebrated Jon's birthday early today.  It was a little quiet since our oldest son wasn't here.  He has finals this coming week but worked as a camera op this whole weekend in Orlando  He works free-lance for a college friend of mine occasionally.  What really made me happy is he got the job on his own with them.  Only after he was hired did they realize he was our son!  He also works for two other companies free lance as well as weekly for the college in media services.  He stays so busy but he loves what he does.  This weekend his food and a hotel room was included.  He loves that!  I do too, I hate to worry about him out late driving!!



Well hope you have a great start to your week tomorrow!!


!!!!!!!  Our church took up an offering today for the Druz orphanage in Ukraine and we met our goal of $150 so they can be fully funded for Christmas!  !!!!  Our folks are so generous-we had to make up just a little out of another fund.  But I love their hearts.  I shared like 2 minutes about what we'd been asked to do and people gave even though they hadn't expected to have a new project today!  It is a blessing!

If you still would like to give to Life 2 Orphans please do there are other orphanages that need help!
http://www.life2orphans.org/cms/node/83

Prison Ministry

Today was the prison's annual Volunteer Banquet.  Technically I'm a volunteer but I usually only make it to the banquet LOL  Jon works at a very unique prison.  It has several mental health units, a hospice unit, a medical unit and an elderly  unit. 

 He has developed a strong volunteer base, I think he has the most volunteers per inmate ratio in the state- or he had the last time I heard the statistics.   While Jon is a conservative protestant, his volunteers come from every religion and christian denomination.   He tries to have a volunteer for each religion/denomination represented by the inmates, so their spiritual needs can be met if they desire it. 

The volunteers are very committed.  It's a lot of work to go into a prison, paperwork, time involved and travel.  Even coming through security takes awhile.  Jon has been at this prison for 8 years and for 8 years I've been seeing the same faces every year at the banquet.  It's very good to see such commitment. 

This is Jon's 20th year of being a chaplain and he absolutely loves his job.  The administration and staff are good folks to work with, people have a good work ethic and are pleasant.  He has support of the chapel programs by his warden and assistant wardens. In fact today's meal was made and served by staff who came in on their day off!   His prison is very rehabilitation and restorative based.  .They want to help the men to be ready to go back to the outside world with good skills!  They don't want to see them unless they come in to volunteer AND that happens!  I met the most pleasant man today who by God's help has turned his life completely around.  He's been out a few years and his life is going great.  He is fully serving the Lord and in ministry.  He is now a volunteer at the very prison he was in!  I LOVE stories like that! 

Jon surprised me today and brought me up on stage.  He told the group that I supported him and made it easy for him to do his ministry.  I had a few minutes to talk and shared to them how much Jon truly loves what he does.  I shared that when he first became a chaplain I was not too thrilled because I was more on the "law and order side" as a probation officer.  But over the years how I've seen how the chaplaincy can make a difference in inmate's lives. 

The main speaker was another chaplain who is actually a Ukrainian!  It was good to have some time to talk with him.  Plus he is a good speaker.   It was a good banquet and everything went great. 

If you are interested in prison ministry, call your local prison or even county jail and ask for the chaplain's office.  They can tell you how to apply to volunteer. 


Well I don't know if you've seen the news but there was snow in Florida....about 200 miles north of us!  But it is COLD here- my thermometer  reads only 58 degrees. Yall know we are not used to that!  It's supposed to be cool for about two weeks.  We usually don't have this kind of weather in December.  Usually we have a few weeks of cold weather in January but this is nice.  We get to wear our cold weather clothes for a few days:)  I just bought Sarah the cutest fleeced sweatshirt.   I'm rather addicted to buying her clothes.  I can't hardly buy Selah any clothes because she has nurses that adore her and she has a fan club LOL  Her closet is not as deep as my closet but it's only a little smaller and is filled with clothes.  I have to buy the practical things for her.  Selah is a little bigger than Sarah but they have such totally different body shapes that they seldom can wear the same clothes.  Shad and Sam are the same way.  But we are looking forward to our little winter for the next few days before we get back to regular Florida weather. 

Biological Family

As an adoptive mom sometimes it is hard for me to think that my adopted children have biological parents.  For me, I feel the absolute same about them as I do my biological children.  I'm not saying that to sound like some type of perfect mom, it's the truth.  But the reality is the Sarah, Shad and Selah have biological families.

In the girls' adoption we were given a little information on their parents, their names, birth dates and addresses.  We also know a little about their siblings, names and birth dates.  Selah has a brother and sister who were adopted in Ukraine.  One of her sisters was adopted in the USA and we have a little contact with her family.  We also know some information on how the girls came to be in the system and when they went into orphanages.  Ukraine allows parents to give up their children for several reasons so it is not against the law.  In fact it is often recommended to the parents if a child has special needs.

In China it is different.  It is against the law for parents to give up their children.  We do know the details of Shad's situation from the time he was found.  I was honored to be able to go to the very spot he was left by his parents.  My heart just broke, I cried so hard that even the taxi driver tried to comfort me.  Driving there my stomach was churning, once we got to the spot I got out and took pictures.  It was a busy area and believe me a big blond crying American got a plenty of attention!   What blessed my heart is that there was a police station only halfway down the block from where he was left.  That showed me his parents cared and wanted him found quickly.  It meant a lot to me that they took him to such a safe place.

For years I'd thought about looking up the girls' parents.  So one night I was waiting up for the boys to get home from the movies and I took all of their names and looked on Facebook.  I came up with someone I thought was related to Sarah and I sent a message.  My message was just something along the line of "We have an adopted daughter who has a similar family name.  Could you possibly be related?"

A few days later I got back a gracious response saying that he would try to help me.  Then I was asked if  I was speaking of Vicky.  My hands shook so much because that is Sarah's Ukrainian name.  I knew immediately this was a relative.  I wrote back "YES" and the response was "she is my daughter"  !!!!   WOW!

I had found her birth father!  We had a beautiful emotional conversation via Facebook messenger.  The tears were running down my face.  I was able to tell him how much we love Sarah.  He had some regrets but I was able to share with him that we actually knew how they must have felt when Sarah was born.  We had gone through the very same thing when Sam was born.  It was a very scary time for us.  I was able to give him information about Peter's Anomaly and how very rare it is.  They had no one in their families that had Peter's Anomaly either, just like us so they were shocked when she was born.  Also I was in Ukraine for almost two months and I realize that there are no resources for families with children who are blind.  I could totally relate to the feelings they had plus I know that families are encouraged to put their children into programs in Ukraine.

We have been able to share some things about our lives back and to.  I LOVE knowing a little more about Sarah's history.  I LOVE Sarah so much so I also love her father!  He is now a part of her life.  I send him pictures and videos.  I hope one day to be able to have some contact with her mother too.  I've seen a picture of her and Sarah resembles her very much.  We have to translate our conversations so sometimes it's a little hard for me to understand and I'm sure it is the same for him.

We pray for him that God will be with him and protect him.  We feel honored that we have contact with him!  He said that God worked out all the everything for Sarah and I feel exactly the same.  I would love to meet him one day-who knows?  Maybe we will have the chance!   I feel like he is our relative now.


God allowed us to adopt Sarah- He moved in all of the details.  What an honor that she is our daughter.  I'm so grateful to her birth parents for giving her life and doing the best they could do for her.  She is a true Joy. 

The last few days I've been so sick with sneezing and coughing.  Last night i went to bed early and Sarah started calling for me "mama Mama mama"  Jon had to play with her and take her mind off me:)  Then today I had a doctor's appointment and our sitter said she kept asking for me even though she was happily playing.   Once i got home all she wanted was to sit on my lap and wrap her arms around me.  She is just absolutely precious.  I always say if no one else loves me Sarah does:)   I'm blessed to be able to care for her now and be her Mama!

Druzhhkovka Orphanage Christmas Cheer

We've been a part of the international adoption community for 12 years now.  My experience with Shad was good-everyone was pleasant and helpful.  My experience while adopting the girls and after has not quite been that good.  It has caused me to step back from much fund raising outside of the few ministries I know to be above board,  Several times I've given money to families who ended up not adopting the child I was raising money for.  That has been very disheartening for me.  The last few years I've mostly raised money within my church and friends for projects for orphans

Also the great need and hurt in the orphan world has taken my breath away and broken my heart.  It's so hard to do much to make a change.  We do have a good friend who runs an orphanage in Haiti that I've been able to partner with.  We have another friend who runs a ministry to street kids in the Philippians and our church denomination has an orphanage there also that we are involved with. . 

But I'm determined to get back to advocating more for adoptions & orphan care! 

So this blog is about Life 2 Orphans a humanitarian charity that helps the children left behind in Ukraine.  They have several programs.  Both of our daughters had individual caregivers who worked with them that were sponsored by Life 2 Orphans.  I think it made a huge difference in their lives! 

This Christmas as every Christmas Life 2 Orphans will be providing Christmas for children all over Ukraine who are in orphanages and institutions.  I've committed to give towards the orphanage that our daughters would be at if they still were orphans.  Because of the war their orphanage/mental institution was closed and the children/adults were all sent out to other institutions.  Most of the children I knew including Angela the girl we have supported for 6 years ended up at Druzhhkovka.  It is a very good place and many of the children I know have made great strides there. 

You can donate by going here
http://www.life2orphans.org/cms/node/83

Or by mailing a check to
 Life 2 Orphans
6326 East Sandra Terrance Dr
Scottsdale AZ 85254


Our church will be taking up an offering on Sunday and I was able to send $200 from some funds I had already received.  I'd like to send another $150 there are about 300 children there so that's really about $1 a child!   I'd be so thrilled to hear of donations to them.  If you donate can you just comment and let me know?  I'll share how much our offering is on Sunday also.  I'd love to bless these kids.  Little things mean alot. 

Thank you for helping me reach out to orphans!

Fall 2017

Look at me blogging two days in a row!!!


And y'all know we had a Cat 3-4 hurricane go right over our house didn't you?  That was "fun"  We were without electricity for 3 days.  Our big house generator decided to die on us too.  Evidently the condenser went bad !  For over 24 hours we didn't have water as we are on county water and they ran out of gas to fuel their generators.  We actually did quite fine as a family (plus we had Steve's college roommate) 

To be honest I slept on the floor with Sarah as the storm went over.  I woke during the eye of the storm because it got so quiet.  When the winds came back I did think our porch was gone but there was absolutely nothing I could do about it so I went back to sleep!  My husband says I must have a pure conscience.  I have slept through every hurricane we've gone through LOL  We didn't have any damage just limbs down.  We did have a dead tree removed hours before the storm hit.  We'd been on the company's list for awhile but they were amazing to get out and get it down before the storm!  I am sure we would have had issues with it had it not got taken down. 

Our nurses maintained their shifts thankfully.  We had to charge some of Selah's equipment in our cars but we worked everything out. 

I've lived through quite a few hurricanes but this one did get me anxious went I went to the store ahead of time and there was nothing on the shelves.  I buy in bulk so I didn't really need alot but I did buy us some comfort food that we don't usually keep at home LOL   When i got back from that trip I needed some type of anxiety pill!!!  I had to make myself calm down and quit freaking out.  cause I didn't have a pill! 

We discussed going to a shelter  but we were told years ago by our county's emergency management to shelter in place due to our circumstances.  The days leading up to the hurricane as the predictions for our area keep getting grimmer- I did contact them but the alternatives they gave us were not something we felt comfortable with doing.  Basically our family would have had to split up and that was not a consideration for us.  I prayed that we made the right decision and God gave me some peace.  Looking back I know we made the right decision and having gone through this monster we probably will always stay home.  We do have hurricane proof windows and that's a biggie. 






Here are some random pictures from this fall.....

Shad and me watching the eclipse.  We made friends with all the folks around us by letting them borrow our glasses. 

One of my BFFs- my college roommate and me waiting for the eclipse.  We had such a fun day!

While we were waiting Shad picked out his birthday present. A drone!  It's a really good one this is a picture of our backyard. 

Here's some pictures of our area.  Jon and I continue our walking/hiking  Our basic goal is 10,000 steps a day but we really try for 15,000.  He often hits it. 

This picture is not far from our house.  The "hill" is actually dug out of the ground where phosphate was mined.  It looks pretty doesn't it?

Leaving my neighborhood one morning

On a walk down our road.  Yes we live in the swamp and I love it

Near our house

So after having this kit for over two years...I FINALLY finished it with the help of the above pictured friend LOL  

We have some special moments on here

At 12 is our recent family picture

1 is a picture from our wedding of Jon's whole family

2 is Jon, Steve and me around Sam's crib the day after he ws born

3 is feeding the gators at Gatorland

4 is the moment I was handed Shad

5 is us in Hondraus

6 is Jon and me in Cuba

7 is us at Gettysburg

8 is us at Chimney Rock

9 a Halloween party 

10 is very precious to me

It's a picture of all the kids at Honeymoon Beach before the accident.  It was truly one of the happiest days of my life

11 the moment we met the girls! 

these are some wonderful memories

I'm so thankful for my family

Ok we have another kitten HOPS  We are still not completely sure of it's sex.  I think it's a boy.  Hops has a bob tail and is handicapped.  His back legs do not work normal.  He hops around and is adoreable.  I took him to the vet and it is a genetic thing that happen to bob tail cats sometimes.  overall he's healthy and we sure have enjoyed him.  He fits right in.  He has no idea he is handicapped LOL  He is very bold

Steve had his 22nd birthday.  He was busy so we went and took him lunch at college

Sam loves his big brother

Our beautiful alma mater & our son's school of choice:)

The next weekend was Homecoming 17

we have not gone in years but now that the little ones have respite care we were able to go.  

Banquet on Friday night

So fun to see folks that we hadn't seen in years!

Southeastern has a football team now and our son is the producer.  We watched him work for awhile.  Amazing to think I have a son doing this! 

Lots going on

He started as a camera op.  I'm pretty sure he likes working in his nice cool studio now LOL  Florida football is HOT!  I mean it's a good 90-95 degrees on the field!!!

There was a funny moment when I couldn't hear the announcer and I texted him to turn up the sound.  For some reason he and his crew thought that was hysterical :)

Thanksgiving weekend we all went for a walk in the woods

I found some new swings on line for Christmas.

Kids who are blind actually crave vestibular movement and they can get it by swinging.  

Since we finally have wonderful weather and the kids can be out every day I gave her her two new swings early 

Sam likes it too

She also got the green one on the left.  she likes it too but she likes her old swings also

This is the 3 of them at Urgent care last week.  I thought this picture was cute

Church a few weeks ago

I love Sarah's dress.  Thrift store find:) 

Selah at church in her new dress  She had just gotten out of the van and was processing everything.  Normally she is much more relaxed

Sarah playing with her favorite sound toy in her Christmas shirt and leggings 

Jon and I at a Christmas Banquet last night.

So just a few pictures of us to show y'all we are still alive and well!

When I first started my blog I really enjoyed blogging.  I just wrote for the heck of it-never really thought anyone much would read it.  Then it became an issue when we were adopting because of ALL the craziness that goes along with Ukrainian adoption.  Not so much the Ukraine government but other people in the adoption community.  I put it on private for quite some months.  

Then after the accident happened this blog became my way to put my thoughts down and to cry out to God.   But obviously there was so much I could not say because you never know how someone might take things.  

As time went by the reservations I had about the adoptive community grew-I withdrew myself from many groups and really kept my on line interactions with many people I actually knew in real life.  

There has been so many things that I've wanted to share but sometimes have felt I didn't have the words to share but I think I will be writing more in the future.  I write for my own self and maybe for my kids to read later on.  Sometimes I write because of the absolute madness in this world on so many levels.  If you want ot continue following me please feel free to. Thanks!