Well Mommy had a rough day but physically Selah had a better day. It seems she is responding better to the new BP meds and her BP is near normal range. It does change throughout the day when it wears off. She still is breathing on her own and keeping her oxygen levels up to 100%! She is at her goal on her g-tube feeds and has had no problem with it. Her heart rate has come down to a near normal range the last few days. So we just need prayer that she will remain stable and that her BP can continue to be controlled. She finally had the EEG and they do not feel she had any seizure activity.
The biggest prayer we need is that God will touch and heal her neurologically ! Today a doctor basically told me "this is where she will be". Of course this is the same doctor who told me she would not live through the day of her accident so I can put it into perspective...
So if you wonder where she is....she is in a vegetative coma. She can breathe on her own but that is it. Her limbs have already stiffened, they feel like wood and she rarely moves except for movements that affect her whole body. They are not "good" movements, they are the kind of movements that show she has massive brain damage. She can not swallow. She has rare periods when it seems she responds to us but they are few and far between. she is not constant with responses like she needs to be. The neurologist who read her EEG today but it rather bluntly....he compared her EEG to a "normal" 8 yr old and said if it were normal, she'd be like a car running on all 6 cylinders. Taking into account her delays, he compared what he thought her EEG would look like , maybe a car running on 2 or 3 cylinders...where she is now...it's like she is running on a half of a cylinder....Her EEG shows massive damage, very slow responses...Hard news to hear for me and for me to write to you...but you need to understand where she is at.
So now you know where she is at and how to pray! We need to see more response and we need to see her limbs relax. It is so very hard to see her like this. You have no idea. Just looking at pictures of her, tear at my heart.
We feel the doctors do everything that can be done that is safe for her. She is on several meds, some to relax her body/limbs, she has Pt and OT, she has splints on her hands so that won't curl up. She wears boots on her feet so the toes won't point out. We play music and interact with her. There is nothing else to be done....She needs a touch from God!
There is no hope for her except in God. We have no one to turn to but Him. I'm so thankful He is our refuge and our strength, a very present help in time of trouble! All I can say is that scripture is true. I promise you it's true!!! Thank God it's true! This God that I serve does fulfill His promises! So if you wonder if God is real, let me tell you He is. He is the only ONE keeping me sane:)
Thank you for praying for Selah! Please keep her in your prayers! We so appreciate your prayers!
BTW it is COLD here in Rochester NY! Tomorrow it will be in the 40's, we think it's kinda neat for it to be so cold in September, the kids are amazed:) Tonight I'm wrapped up in a nice blanket that a friend sent the girls, I'm borrowing it!
We continue to pray that God's Hand brings such peace and healing.
ReplyDeleteDo they have "alternative therapies" at the hospital? I'm thinking acupuncture (which IMO just helps restore nerves), ultrasound therapy (I had it after an accident), Cranial Sacral therapy, stuff like that? It seems like the doctors should be open to things since "they say" this is where she is--then why not try other things as long as it is safe?
ReplyDeleteI will pray for her to relax her body and respond to you and Jon more often. I will pray the medications help keep her BP down. I am grateful they are saying she is NOT having seizures! Thank you God!
Stay warm my friend *hugs*
Praying for your sweet girl. Praying that God will touch and heal precious Selah. He can, and i pray that He will.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you tonight and praying that you feel the love of all of us adoptive parents out here in cyberland. We are praying, passing this along, and praying some more. We long to see Selah restored to you. She is a treasure.
Much love to you all.
In His hands,
Alycia
I have been reading and praying for you and your family. My mother had a massive stroke in 2005 which put her in a vegetative coma for 4 years until the good Lord took her Home. Everything you write about is very familiar to me. It's so difficult to watch, but I always took comfort in knowing my mother was in the Lord's hands during the period she was in the vegetative coma and when she went to Heaven, it was a day of rejoicing that she was free from the bondage of this earthly existence. Your daughter is loved and she knows it. Even though she cannot communicate, I know that she can feel your love. When you describe that she seems far away some days and closer other days is exactly what I felt with my mother. The days she was further away, I always imagined that's when she was in the arms of the Lord and when she was close to us, I took that as a sign that she wanted to visit with us in our worldly bodies. Just know that this path that you are now walking is in the Lord's plans and although we may never understand why, in time it will be revealed. Sending you strength as you continue to walk this difficult path.
ReplyDeletePraying for that healing touch from the Lord.
ReplyDeleteStay warm!
Praying, Yvonne! Just praying and praying.
ReplyDeletePraying, Yvonne! Just praying and praying.
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ReplyDeletePraying for more progress and complete healing as soon as the Lord would allow! Glad to know that she is home and I'm sure she can feel all your love and care.
ReplyDeleteThis is absolutely awful. I am so, so sorry for Selah and for your family. You've been through enough. I can't even imagine. I'm swallowing back tears as I read this.
ReplyDeleteIn light of Selah's prognosis, have doctors suggested removing her from life support? It seems like the kindest option, under the circumstances.
she is not on life support, she is breathing on her own. she had a trach because she can't control her secreations and we don't want her to die by aspiration. It's a fine line but Selah has brain acitivity, she is far from brain dead and we have a respondsibitly as parents to give her the best medical care we can. Yes she has a trach and now a feeding tube but we also do not believe we should starve her to death either....
DeleteAh, okay. That is an incredibly difficult situation. I'm sure you know what the best decision is for her. I so hope for all of you that things improve!
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